The only reason I didn’t commit suicide yesterday was a lack of emotional resource to go to darknet and research how to buy a gun

Replace sui with homi

What’s wrong Kiki ?

Was sitting and thinking about giving the sick fucks around me some irradiated glow in the dark deer and mutant trees personally

Calling your local suicide hotline is easier anyway.

Or just rationalizing the reason you want to in the first place which often has nothing to do with you but someone around you being a sneaky piece of shit these days trying to depress you

Yesterday I let myself feel just a portion of the anguish I carry around and all I wanted To do was ice the fucks wandering around me doing the same fucked up heartless shit their fucking parents who in some cases I had encountered were doing before them

@electrineer Do they sell guns there?

@Fast-Nop lamentably no but with the gradual takeover of social services by people who actually desire the opposite of what they say im sure they’d find ways of sneakily increasing someone’s predirection to self harm and finding a way for them to find a gun without their prints on it

@AvatarOfKaine Sounds useful. 🧐

@Root which part ?

Do you have someone to talk to? Is this a cry for help?

Don't let them win Kiki. Fuck everyone, you have to look out for yourself. Surround yourself with friends and family that you like and everyone/everything else can go fuck themselves. I know you have the spirit to live on your own terms, I've seen your posts and comments.

@Hazarth thank you. Though there are no people to blame. It’s just a disorder, it’s just chemistry

@kiki always remember that the good days are coming soon

@kiki remember there is always homicide :) lots of people deserve to die

It’s like a grab bag of potential freak targets