Routine

My whole life is being destroyed
by my inability to do anything on
a routine basis ..

Most things require it but I'm just
too good at destroying any progress
I make on it ..

Just schedule repeating events in the calendar. Then make it a rule to complete task when prompted.

@spongegeoff Notification fatique..

I'm a master at ignoring them..

I have a wifi shock collar solution for you...

@Demolishun That might actually work~

Dont go to hard on yourself, sometimes is your brain not getting the right hormones or whatever, find help (even if you don't feel like it)

Let the sun touch you (helps releasing good stuff)

Exercise

Find a therapist

@wicho Yeah, I should go outside some more..

This type of sentiment resonates with me a lot. Do you know if you suffer from hyperfocus/context switching executive dysfunction? If it feels like a chronic thing for you, with ups and downs, you likely have what the DSM calls "ADHD", or what child development theorist should call "trauma noise": an inability to context switch to what you believe is important for the longterm, because you are too busy feeling bad about the day-to-day attention seeking stuff. (I had ADHD diagnosis, and went through a lot of self- and other-therapy for CPTSD). It takes a long time to find ADHD youtubers who are not missing the mark-due to people interperting "I can't focus on horrible job but I also know I am bored of it" as ADHD (it's not).... BUT! I saw this on my feed the other day and I feel like it might be helpful:

https://youtube.com/watch/...

It's what I personally found touches on the pain point you mentioned. I hope it does help.

@virtualdev

Thank you for the recommendation~

As far as I know, I have never been looked at for psychological stuff so I'm not sure if I have anything ..

However, basically everything that was described in the video has been my experience so far ..

I general I don't look up videos like that since there is so much bs and pandering but that one was quite well made.

And the tactics that were described kind of resembled the things I sometimes ( not on purpose ) did and worked, so I guess I should try some of those strategies.

I relate. I only started looking into it after I realized the lack of structure is making me inconsistent. I'm not American and only felt it after grad school. I agree, messaging is heavily branded. I read neuroscience journals and development theory instead, and it made sense.

Whatever people will call it in the future: ADHD or neurodivergence... it is a thing. As in, this pattern can be looked at in a brain scan. Creative problem solving and being mission-driven could be an indicator of neurodivergence. It also looks like learning new things gives us a disproportionate amount of dopamine vs neurotypicals. That's why we pivot to new systems. Does that also resonate with you?

If you're neurotypical - whatever that is - structure is a way to get you to do things, vs structure being just a parameter in a problem. It can be an interesting one, or one that makes you cry, lol. Structured environments cause us to be bored, so routine will often be a problem you're trying to solve.

@virtualdev

Does that also resonate with you?

Oh very much so, I have a broad interest spectrum and like creating projects around all kinds of things.

I recently tried learning math some more and started a project trying to document it in my own way and it felt like it was easier because I made it into a project.

@virtualdev In regards to one of the proposed strategies, time based tasks.

I wish VLC had a feature where I could say 'I want to listen to 20 minutes of this playlist (random)' and if I skip something it would readjust.

Also fuck mobile for having ads on everything, makes me not want to do anything that isn't on my computer..

( I can't work / learn / ... without music )

@ElectroArchiver That's legitimately a wonderful seed/idea for a project! I've always wanted "media/timer player" Frankenstein product because I weirdly like pomodoroing but not using timers, but maybe even a round of gaming.

p.s. I realize the irony in asking you to do a side project to solve both our problems in a post where you were venting about progress.....

@virtualdev 'One more project can't hurt' 'I can't take that long, right?'

Though obviously I know the answer to those things and still start them anyways..

What you need is a secretary.

The dirty little secret here is that an effective secretary is just a boss *you* hire, instead of *them* hiring *you.*

If I had the runway (savings), I would hire myself a secretary immediately.