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I don’t know if I just want to harm myself or what… like it’s as if I really enjoyed being burned out so I’m trying to recreate that feeling.

So, the thing is I’m employed as a de facto principal security engineer, basically doing the work of 5-6 people and more, since I haven’t been able to completely shed all my responsibilities from my previous roles as cloud engineer and software developer. On top of that I’m studying my CS Master’s as if I was a full-time student. That’s a lot on my plate. No free time to speak of, and even that’s filled with side projects and, if I can spare the time once in a while, other hobbies.

Now I saw that the security research group in my university is recruiting research assistants to a quantum-resistant cryptography research project - and I am soooo tempted to apply. The topic and what the research project practically aims for, and the potential learning outcomes that I can see from the job description, excite me beyond comprehension!

Am I going to drive myself to burn-out and my marriage to an irreparable state if I take that side job on top of this all? Will I be reasonable and think about that ahead of time, before applying, or will I dive in and just find out?

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    Drop the current job and focus on studies and the research assistant job?
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    @electrineer ummm, no?

    I actually like my current job. Besides, my current pay barely affords me to keep paying up the loans I took in my stupid youth, and just taking on the research assistant job would mean a major drop in mah earnings. So no, that is not an option.
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    @electrineer if I had room in my monthly expenses (as in something I could drop) for a smaller pay and/or my spouse had better job security to be able to support me like I’ve supported them for years, then your suggestion could be a viable option to consider. As it stands, however, it’s a no-go.
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    Given the demanding nature of your current responsibilities, it's understandable that you may not want to take on additional tasks, even if they are in line with your passions and interests. Before you make any decisions, it can be helpful to take a step back and evaluate your priorities and limits. Reflecting on what is truly important to you and considering the potential impact on your well-being and relationships can provide valuable insight. I also think you will find services such as https://edubirdie.com/examples/... useful to help you with your studies. Don't forget to prioritize self-care and reach out to loved ones or professional resources for support if needed. Your dedication to your career and personal growth is to be commended, but it's important to make sure you don't sacrifice your health!
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