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kiki
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Here's an incomplete list of things my mother did to me:
- She insulted my body when I was 13. She told me it was weak and feminine. I identified as a boy back then, and I was going to the gym.
- She told me my face was ugly because of acne.
- She shamed me for having better vision than her.
- She shamed me for having longer eyelashes than her, the told me I looked like a girl.
- She always wanted me to learn everything and have all A's. When I got B+, she destroyed me mentally every time. When I got C, this was a catastrophe. Yet, if I told her she was wrong about mundane things like how many volts there are in an outlet, it was me who's in the wrong, despite me having an A for physics. There was no contradiction here in her eyes.
- She forced me to carry heavy things as a punishment. At the age of fifteen, I had an inguinal hernia. The surgery was needed. After that, doctors told me (and her) that I should go easy on carrying heavy things for a month. She didn't listen and forced me to carry heavy things again after two weeks. I had another inguinal hernia. Now, I needed a much more invasive laparoscopy to implant nylon webbing. Because of all of that, now I have messy, ugly scars all over my belly. Guess what happened next? She shamed me for having them!
- Since I was 18, even though I was studying in the uni, she demanded money for rent, for me living in my parents' house I grew up in. The sum she demanded was 27x my scholarship money.
- When I broke my toe, it was obvious that I broke it. It was swollen, twice the size of a normal toe, for two weeks straight. She told me to quit whining and go to PE/Taekwon-do lessons she forced me to attend.

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  • 9
    No excuse for the above. Sorry you went through that.
  • 2
    I recall multiple cases where my mom did things you've listed in the first 5 bullet points. She also insisted on braiding my hair (I had longish hair in my early childhood) and doing my fingernails (I remember agreeing to it a few times).

    IDK, it seems normal to me to burp smth out while angry or "caught in a moment" and playfully experiment with stuff. And I didn't (and still don't) feel the urge to become a girl.

    Can't justify the remaining points in your list ones though.
  • 4
    @netikras there is a difference between "come oooon, your nails will look so beautiful, just let me do it, and you'll see" and "your eyelashes look way too long. They should be mine, but you took them away from me when you were in my womb. I hate feminine men. You look too much like a girl, and it's disgusting. Your body is disgusting, just like your stepdad's."
  • 2
    When it's time for a nursing home you'll probably get all the payback you need.
  • 1
    @IHateForALiving because of some non-specific reason, I'll write my will soon-ish. I'm planning to explicitly pass $1 to her, so she can't make the case that she was forgotten and get more of my money. This is the last bit of money she'll ever get from me.
  • 0
    @IHateForALiving also, from time to time I get back to my perfect crime: get her exposed to rabies. She won't notice, and when she does, it'll already be too late. Euthanasia is illegal in Russia, so she's going to suffer her way through this gruesome death. The only reason I'm not carrying this out is that this is not gruesome enough and not long enough to satisfy me. Otherwise, I can carry this out by paying around $400 to a certain person I know.
  • 2
    @kiki if you ever want to plot some feasible karma out, we should chat somewhere less public... im quite creative ;)
  • 1
    @awesomeest welcome@miloi.am
  • 1
    @vvvutov dude... the irony is real. Youre literally crying so hard on the inside that you're making trash accounts to manually complain, in no dev way whatsoever, about something you claim to not want to be a part of.

    If you're so concerned about dev shit... at least learn how to script some bots... at least theyd have correct spellings.
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