guys, remember, don't think

the establishment and authority, your peers, your boss, your company, the whole corporate, economic structure as approved by government... if you try to think instead of nodding. you're the problem

don't think, man

no thinky

apparently there's benevolent lizards and they actually have decent "reprogramming self" advice. like immunity to being eaten by the malevolent lizards which feed off fear and apparently anger (though they never fed on my anger... so I took why my anger can never be fed on and added it to the fear and now I can feel fear without getting pulled)

but really I don't know what's wrong with me. there's something in there that's just violently lashing out at everything like a cornered animal. and I don't even know why it's triggering. I don't think I existed with this before I had gotten sick. it's like sharp claws in a fuzzy ball like how one would imagine cats being just rapid razorblades. so fast and vicious

and even past that it's like. how do you even trust random aliens in the universe. humans are so shitty so why would they be any better? do they all parrot repeatedly what their authority figures tell them, also? do they manipulate each other? my dogma or eat shit kind of attitude? you do what they want or they try to outsmart you, domineer you?

I talked to the angels and they felt authoritarian. I don't know if that was something telling me that or they really are that way. and the demons trick you. at least I can respect that. maybe I'm just traveling on the wrong stream

met a guy irl and he was like, "nooo, my brother comes to visit us to see us?!". I was so confused. he doesn't use you? he just likes you? and here my last HR from a company, when my boss was abusing me and I conceptualized it as her not liking me, went at me for mentioning that I conceptualized it as her not liking me as if if anybody wants to be liked it should be shameful (I wasn't even saying that I wanted it... it was just fact to me, it was the literal diagnostic problem). she told me it's not about being liked. like it's somehow shameful to want to have a good atmosphere, to have a reason to have a cooperative atmosphere... and I don't actually know if everyone prior to this incident was using me the whole time and I just didn't notice it. since all those relations did eventually fall through for one reason or another -- either I left cuz they wanted to force something too hard, or they left because I refused to do what they wanted or wasn't "as they already wanted"

sigh

Am I in a toxic work environment or not?

1. I suggested implementing some code guidelines for our team so we can all work the same way. Lead architect sends me a DM telling me to stop talking about it until after projectX is done because it might stress out other devs. Friday he talks about how important it is to use standardised tools and ways of doing things.
2. Spent a week working on a bug fix and they said solution is good, but then invalidated all of my work by DM-ing me saying it's unusable because i worked on wrong branch and he quickly fixed it over the weekend and I should just copy his (inefficient) code.
3. I ask him a basic question of what version the backend software is using and he doesn't even respond. I ask another team member who quickly helps me check. it would have taken 1 fucking integer to answer that question. i wanted to learn the backend stack, but not so much anymore.
4. Lead doesn't respond to project management software ticket mentions.
5. Lead randomly makes hotfixes to the QA server without prior notice so the backend randomly goes down at times during work hours and then my local copy of the front end stops working for no reason at all when I am trying to focus on bug fixes
6. UX/UI designer's screen designs look completely different than the actual app, so I spent weeks implementing a feature looking like his nice designs, then having to change it again, taking another week.
7. Generally poor comms
8. Leadership mentioned jobs are safe, then 2 months later retrenched a bunch of people.
9. People getting sick all of the time.
10. Nobody gives a shit about technical debt

- went to the store
- get shot
- call 911
- cops arrive before er
- they're suspicious bc you're black
- ask for your license and registration
- you reach for your pocket to get your driver's license
- "he's reaching!", they say as they mag dump into you
- you die
- your family can't afford funeral while m$ valuation goes from 3 trillion dollars to 4 trillion dollars
- murica!

Still not paid. Bitch better have my money

Yes, send me a screenshot of the logs. Beacause I love having to re-type the error you just got. If only there was a way to copy paste text in Slack!

I did not know I was working with my grandma...

It's so not in the sun here, that my headphones stopped working. I guess I'll just go home again. Also, since I work with li-on batteries at the community service I'm a bit scared for my phone getting hot and stuff. We throw these batteries at eachother for a reason.

Devrant not loading again... hit refresh... still nothing... is today the day it finally snuffs it?

Sigh with relief as the UI starts to load...

And there it is: a lengthy ode to the best pest control service in Hockaloogie, Alabama.

The natural balance of the universe has been restored.

I hate deprecations! Adopted a web project that was actively maintained until 2023, how can it already be so "legacy" that none of its npm scripts work anymore?

Static Types work great with my wife !!!
I ask: "how much it costs?"
She sits down, and starts "well, it depends.."
me: "number"
she: 500.

Amazing! I'll try object/enum style next, see if she can answer 'return {cost: 500, cur: "GBP"}'.

Then I'll try Rust strings for shorter tales of her co-workers :)

Guys what if the temperature never goes down and this is the beginning of the boogaloo?

I will be your king.

Yeah turns out writing a shell is a whole lot more work than I thought

Fuck man, why can't I just find a cool project that is actually doable in a normal lifetime

Anybody know why devrant is no more on Google play store.

I had to go through apkpure

God I want my guitar why is time so slow???

Apparently all companies are now a 'cutting-edge, digital transformation partner'. lmao. lol.

— how much for your services?
— $100, no ass to mouth, no rough stuff
— no, I mean how much to rewrite my app in laravel
— I said no ass to mouth

dev communities can be the most toxic as well as the most welcoming at the same time.

just depends on what your timing is. You can get a bunch of links to help debug your issue or you can get told to "kill yourself".

You never know.

So I finally received a job offer...it's a much better salary BUT...small company, coporate office is currently a rented out home till the new location is ready, less than 50 people total, not sure how to feel about it to be honest, the offer is quite attractive though, might just take the plunge and hope we don't sink to the bottom.

What‘s the purpose of separating your code into "independent" modules if each module contains everything anyways?

I hate rollover video previews!!! Looking at you TouTube!!!! If I want a preview of the video, make it a button or something. The thumbnail disappearing and network activity lag every single time my mouse happens to barely caress an item in the video feed is SUPER FUCKING ANNOYING!

Especially on mobile!!!