I am livid and humans are just vile and disgusting beings

you know how much we say cortisol is stress and bad for you

it isn't. cortisol literally makes you unable to feel fear, it literally heals you. it STRICTLY does this. it is NOT the "stress" response

if peoples level of cortisol is high that's GOOD, not bad. they literally have more self control and their blood sugar levels are better and their brain is protected from the ACTUAL stress chemicals. your body releases cortisol to RECOVER from stress and to ensure you can remain sane and functional during high stress, like a well-trained combat soldier and shit

I just can't. humans are so disgusting. the cult of science is just vile. they just parrot each other and perform fucking rituals blindly, calling themselves high status and pretending they have the answers to everything when they're literally backwards. never do they analyze anything they say. they ignore all exceptions to their dogma. worse than any religion in the history of mankind

Week: 122 (Year 3)

I missed last weekend. How was it for you?

Question: I am not able to access DevRant on my phone. Is this the end?

last Weekend : https://devrant.com/rants/19394837

I am job hunting atm.

I fucking hate it. Just sent half of my life to them with lied niceties. Got dammit... Data farming was never simpler.

All I need to do is set up a fake company website, put out a few job ads and let people send me their certificates, cv, telephone numbers. Guess those could be sold.

Hey kids, be careful what you're telling on the internet, except if you want a job, then run around naked.

Oh, yea.. shameless plug.. If anyone needs a web developer, full stack, anywhere in Europe where there is a beach and a warm climate, who pays >90k €. You'll get a great developer, who is perpetually in a bad mood, has a never ending headache, is blunt and does freelance work on the side.

So, anyone? No one? Yea, didn't expect so.. Back to lying to get a job. Indeed, here I come.

Looks like devrant paid for their certs and https is back on the table (so I am back).

Update: I signed an offer two days ago. I battled myself for a while because I am self conscious when it comes to money, but talking to the new team for 3+ hours and chatting with some close peers helped me realize that I have enough money, it's still good money I'd be making, and my work life balance would be great even for a startup.

Saying the job market is rough would be an understatement. It's really a battle of perseverance and a numbers game.

Aaaaaaand of course my math was wrong because I trusted AI to do it right

It didn't do it right :L

I've observed how the January news cycle always sets the tone for the entire year. This is both intentional and orchestrated:

https://battlepenguin.com/politics/...

earlier I wrote

> we have very little control of ourselves and our proclivities. there's internal and external locus of control beliefs people have and I was always internal, and internal psychologically has better odds in life and better mental health and all that. but turns out actually we don't decide anything at all and it's all external. which thoughts pop into your head? what craving do you have, what wishes look good? what you enjoy and don't enjoy. all that you never decided. your body did. whether you can care or remember to do something for a friend or for a job or a project... it was never your choice

and through a series of events I picked up a book on meditation (non-pop) and meditated for three days and I take it back

better than "therapy" actually. Humans know nothing!

being stuck in fight or flight for 3 years shrinks prefrontal cortex functions turns out, and increases emotionality

I could use this for so many things... you don't even have to explain anything to yourself like cognitive behavioural therapies. you end up looking like you can just do things through force of will, but you actually expend no will whatsoever, and your cortisol levels are lower, you use less effort for everything. mindfuck

I'm not sold on the whole compassion thing though. Maybe I'll change my mind later. There's too much sith in my heart from the experiences in my life

Anyone else noticed that the profile's score no longer gets incremented? Well... good thing I've already acquired enough score to be satisfied w/ the avatar.

beep boop. Is this thing still on? Hello, check, 123. Hello, check, 123

Next display server protocol proposal that would succeed Wayland has been just announced:

Every GUI elements require 3D graphics API and live ray tracing because it looks "cool" and "awesome".
Screen buffer won't get pushed to the display unless it's been perfectly ray traced, not missing every spot.

Users are required to enter their password everytime an application calls the drawing API to prevent unauthorized memory modification.

The mouse cursor is delayed about 10 seconds because the floaty feeling is the "future". It will also follow your hand movement with a 500ms interpolation curve to enhance elegantness.

Next step on my job hunt... Automated coding interview... All the surveillance bullshit. Share your whole screen, camera and mic, we will record every word. Don't look anything up, no AI.

Fine.. Can do, you surveillance state arseholes... So I get to coding. Coding challenge stuff. Easy enough. Took me ten minutes to get into the groove. Then I made it in optimal big O. Some smaller stupid mistakes. Not incorrect.

But I have a toddler. Anyway, turns out I sing to myself when I am focusing. So, when they open. The video, they will find the applicant solve their test while singing:

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I want to know what you are,
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky...

Guess next time I also should try not to look like a psychopath... Let's see I'd someone will bring it up.

Fuck taxes