every time my brain's functionality perks up even a little bit and I regain some functionality I used to have I literally end up insatiably spiraling through the new abilities and God complex all over the place

if you were a god, what kind of god would you be?

I think I would be kinda god as described in the bible. With a certain set of rules. Life's complex with some guidance in your life. You need rules to play with. Everyone often cheats and breaks some rule but god forgives. The cheating is part of the game.

Without rules you end up with blue hair caring about stuff that doesn't matter. You'll be screaming that the Palestinian or Jews have to die without knowing any of them and are thousands kilometers away from it happening. Pure by not having a context of yourself. Not your "own world.". If you had some more rules and structure in your life, people wouldn't be so fucked up.

A god which doesn‘t let people suffer through the horrors of javascript.

But seriously, this question is kind of meaningless because the concept of a god is self contradictory in many ways.

I can‘t think about what god I would be like because something like a god can‘t logically exist.

Just to name a few problems:

If a god creates everything, what creates god?

If a god is omnipotent, why does he need or want his creations to believe in him?

How does free will work? If the creations are supposed to have free will, then they are also free to not believe in god or if they do, choose to not obey his rules. But if they disobey, they are punished and that‘s not very free, isn‘t it?
This just doesn’t make any sense.

@Lensflare

God includes everything in the observable universe and then extra stuff we don't know

"what creates God": technically we're all little microprocessors of God. though my question is what if you were a god, which doesn't mean you're the ultimate god but a god-like being, which I mean metaphorically but you can also ego maniac

believing in a God prevents you from dying. God includes physics and if you think your human ideas are superior than physics you will soon be humbled, eg jumping off a building to try to fly when you haven't respected the god-part of gravity or found the god-part of air pressure and yet made the equivalent of parachutes or air gliders or I guess figured out whatever those bouncey things are but those seem kind of dangerous to me

@Lensflare

I'm curious about the free-will part and I haven't cracked that nut. I do plan to though. if we're all little node microprocessors it must have something to do with whatever "power" that offers you. in chaos magic they view attention as currency, so it's probably somewhere down that road. esoteric meditative stuff focuses on how what you give attention to you will grow within yourself, so to speak. so somewhere down those chains there probably will be answers

A nice one but mysterious lol

@Lensflare even Stephen Hawking acknowledged God in the end like many smart people. But you're young, there's much time to spiritually develop and stop being a robot :D Look around you how perfect everything makes sense and not sense at the same time. Look at you perfect body with two arms, ten fingers everything in a convenient length / size. If you think this is by coincidence by a big bang or smth, that's really crazy. Crazier than the god concept.

I think I've already been one.

/jk

I listened more to the character on the right, than that on the left.

@D-4got10-01 that game was great

@jestdotty Yup.

Enjoyed both of them, including the expansions.

@retoor I‘m not young :)
Getting rid of god is the intellectual maturity, not the other way around.
Don‘t even try to convince me to believe in god. I am the guy who convinces others to stop believing in god.
But I don‘t want to argue with you, let‘s keep it this way :)

@Lensflare yeah, Stephen Hawking was intellectual quite immature :P But OK, lets leave it :)

Btw! AI classified your comment as profanity I saw in logs, I don't :P

@retoor lol 😂

That‘s quite profane of the AI to classify this as profanity!

@Lensflare I have no idea what is wrong about that text.

Once, I was young, believed in nothing else than 'what is logic' to me just like you :) But then i saw dem light and realized that I was underdeveloped at a certain area. Something that makes you think pas logic for reasoning what made the world quite more magic. It's also hard to accept things if you consider everything logic. Nothing is just is how it is. I once believed that I could influence everything and if something fails it always had to do with me. Now I consider external factors too, nothing to do with me :) Way relaxter way of living. This way of thinking can even happen to you one day, there was no bigger atheist than me. I've read the children bible freewilling on school as a kid. Directly, I was like "fun book, but fiction". I still think about the bible that way. I kinda discovered religion myself. Religion is not something we discussed at home. Never talked about it. By now it's forbidden for reasons :P