someone who was very sad and depressed for a really long time suddenly feels a lot better, cheerful and friendly?
They're suicidal. They made the decision, and they're happy that the end is in sight.

evidently my bf did that when he got with me. his friends kept dropping how much happier he seemed now

so I don't know about that exclusively

sometimes people suck and you just meet people that don't, and you can vibe, so life gets better

This happens to me in irregular intervals. I'm not suicidal. It's a manic depression, or something alike, whichever my doctor said.

Or bipolar

@Ranchonyx wtf? You're bipolar too? Manic depression is another name for bipolar disorder

I'm on Lamotrigine 300mg, Quetiapine 300mg, Fluvoxamine 200mg and Hydroxizine 50mg. If your therapy fails you, this scheme I and like 8 different doctors nailed down over the course of 8 years can serve as a good baseline. I have Bipolar type 1, which is the most severe one.

But I hope you have access to good medical care given that you live in the country I desperately want to move to.

@netikras …in which case it means that depression ended and [hypo]mania began, e.g. THE suicide period for bipolar patients.

@kiki looks similar, causality is different

@netikras in bipolar patients, that's usually the reason. But not everyone who behaved like what I initially described was bipolar, that's for sure

Occasionally, I wonder if I stress my friends out when I had some good rest (I have to finish the thing... FUCK it's 2am kinda person) and I'm a lot more positive

Please, let's do not throw bipolar diagnoses around. I'm on the mania side bigger part of my life. Got several times arrested and locked up in mental hospital because it escallated. Also was a while homeless. 99% of bipolar people are fake, even in the hospital. Psychiatrists are fraud, instead of helping me, they called the police once. They have no idea what to do if they see a real mania. Also, every mania you make and lose friends. Depression makes you lose them too. I was rarely depressed. Two times around a year in my life. Was a zombie for 1,5 year long recently due forced haldol medication monthly with injection. Terrible side effects, drooling, being VERY retarted, moving issues, walked more than 20km a day IN MY HOUSE (step counter), did do weird dances a supermarket, time takes ages because you're too stupid to find smth to do and you're too depressed because of haldol. I was just tortured for 1,5 year. They just kept dosing haldol as long there was a bit happy in me.

@retoor they will come for you when you have a mania. But thats the life of a bipolar. Got issues same age as my mom did. My mom is more on depressed side, but two years ago she had hypo mania and that 60 year old woman moves like a 20 year old ninja. She is very social having mania. She has 4.000 people on Facebook (not more, then you need to be an organisation according to fb rule) but spent several times holidays alone. She fucked up with a serious amount of people. Just the heavy change of personallity is smth people don't understand and they'll take distance from you. Tell never to someone if you're bipolar. They're the most unreliable of all the diagnoses. If someone knows, it would never hire you in NL for example since the employers take much responsibility for health by law. A depressed or locked up bipolar can cost massive amount of money to company. Also, bad reputation regarding sexual lust. Nothing you want to be known for.

I found something called berberine... it calmed me down

apparently it improves cognitive deficients in schizophrenics and reduces neuro-inflammation

I know they give bipolars lithium to reduce inflammation. I tried to find that but couldn't. also it's a bit dangerous. but possibly an essential mineral and its deficiency possibly leads to inflammation and mania

I've tried so many anti inflammatories... I know when I "get bad" it's because I did something that increased inflammation, and it always comes with hyperactivity / mania and then my brain degrades and I have memory issues, then full-on Alzheimer's and don't know what I did 5 seconds ago and this goes on until the inflammation clears

if I stop taking berberine though my brain degrades. central nervous system has immune cells that if primed for inflammation need to apoptosis and renew. these cells renew the slowest in your whole body, with some 7+ year halflife (idr). to fix immunity you need to do this. no inflam & wait 😭

Note to self: don’t be happy…?

I loose all my hope when i fel like no one is coming for me. Then i get it back when i realized I gotta do it no matter what