I did it.

Had my final exam today.
Presentation and technical project defense both A-!

I'm officially now a certified IT specialist for application development.
(Rough translation from German "Fachinformatiker für Anwendungsentwicklung"

Signing the contract tomorrow and genuinely looking forward to the future for once.

I've started messing with C++ again, and it's kinda fun :)

I'm a fan of modular systems, so I've decided to build a little proof of concept for plugin loading.

A plugin is basically just a shared library which exposes a class that extends the Plugin abstract class and implements some lifecycle methods.

Then a plugin file has a system specific PLUGIN_EXPORT create_plugin()... function that just returns an instance of the plugin.

I've decided to use a super simple event bus for communicating from the host system to the plugin and vice versa, it's supplied in a PluginContext class which is supplied to the plugin upon initialisation.

Loading the plugins is done via LoadLibraryA(...) or dlopen(...).

Of course I'm freeing/closing them again at the end of the host system lifecycle. I hope to eventually implement some form of HMR.

Idunno why I'm sharing this; The system has zero purpose other than learning, but I've figured that implementing plugins in a "lower" level language, rather than typescript with node is more fun :)

I accepted a nice offer by my current company.

Boss invited us to a nice dinner today for some planning and whatnot.

Was quite nice actually.

Definitely looking forward to the future atm...

The next time I hear someone go "it'll happen when you least expect it", I'll cave their skull in.

Oh and also, my Parser is done :)

Addendum to prev. rant:

And now my boss can't cope with the fact that I need to attend job college twice a week for two days, LIKE EVERY OTHER APPRENTICE HE EVER HAD, and decided to scrap my colleague's and my downtime project under the pretense: "There is no downtime" and "If you're only here three days a week, we gotta scrap it for time reasons".

Piece of horseshit.
How can you be so stupid and not know that in beforehand?! Every other apprentice you ever had, had the same job college plan.

If this behaviour isn't getting better, I'm out after my apprenticeship ends.

It's fucking incredible how boring work can be.

There is literally nothing exciting or new or challenging whatsoever.

I swear if we don't get any interesting projects soon I'm bailing after I finish my training, no matter what they offer me.

I can't work like this. It's only tickets, tickets, tickets, tickets, tickets...

Appointments appointments appointments meetings meetings appointments suffering meetings meetings AAAAAAAAAAA I DON WANNAAAAA

I'll keep on going about my vacation.

Went down the piste from where I took the picture, usually takes half an hour on average, I took less than 15 minutes.

I'm a tiny bit proud of myself :)

Finally.

I've never lost respect for users on a platform faster than all the AI and GPT shills on here.

Holy shit, y'all are delulu.

Happy new year.

I was looking at F# and... What the fuck even??

I guess it has a certain allure, the reason why I'm not able to pinpoint as of yet...

Merry chrysler...

My lovely colleagues from planning bought me this for "my continuous help over this year".

I love those guys.

I fucking hate December.

I'm going to have to learn about patterns in programming.

Structural and behavioural ones.

I know of several, but I'd love to hear some real-life use cases from y'all, if y'all don't mind.

Instead of age++, I now do lifetime--;

I fucked up big time and I think I'm having a panic attack.

... I'll be honest.
I think something in my mind is fucked.

I can not work repetitive tasks.
I can't. I can't. I fucking can't.

My primary task should be to program stuff. Not configure bullshit for a living.

I just want something challenging, something new, something interesting.

BOOOORRRREEEEDOOOMMM

Prod is way more fucked than I initially thought...
Fml

Update to my "I broke prod" rant:

- I managed to unfuck it on the same evening.
- Worked fine for one day
- Crashed today morning
- Can't fix it because I had surgery yesterday and am on sick leave currently
=> Probably gonna result in me VPNing into the comp network and RDPing into the prod instance to analyse the failure

Yep, ladies and gents, more open heart surgery on the menu!

I did it.

I finally fucked prod.

And had to do open heart surgery on the service to get it unfucked.

Shit happens. Luckily its internal prod only...

The fuck is it with the three or so "anti german" accounts?

Everything is shit. I just wanna cry.

I was working on a thing at work which routes http requests from one endpoint and port to several local services.
I was halfway done when I noticed I just wrote a primitive reverse proxy.

Anyway, I'm calling it GRID, Gateway for REST Interface Distribution.

It's capable of dynamically attaching new routes and services and removing those during runtime via inbuilt typescript compilation service.

Each "runtime module" defines several routes which may have a middleware function (express.js style), which gets executed before forwarding the request to the local service.

I don't know why, but I'm kinda proud of this one; Feels like I made something actually useful for once.

Gonna maybe add a webUI with the monaco editor to write typescript modules without needing VSCode...

Also I may implement a load balancing system for scalability.

It comes with a cli too.

Gonna put it on github and post it here once I'm done with v1.

45

...

45 is the number of calls in my call history today.
Needless to say, my brain was fried by 1400

I'm so fucking done.

Tatatataa...
Writing a simple parser for a simple configuration format at work...

Surprisingly fun; I decided not to use a lot of ECMAScript's fancy stuff and do it C-like... ish.

Good fun, I may make it more generic and configurable and put it on my GitHub...

!rant
Follow up to: https://devrant.com/rants/10866327/...

I got a decent raise and I was offered opportunities as trainer or development team lead after I finish my apprenticeship.

All in all I'm happy with today's results :)

I feel like I need to morph into an octopus to keep efficiently doing my work.
Too few hands, too few brains...

And I just can't fucking focus on 5 things fucking simultaneously...

I was coding.
-> Customer calls
-> New ticket with higher priority
-> I get back to coding
-> Boss calls, do ticket first
(Rinse and repeat)

I don't even know if I'm able to at least get a raise as a trainee, but our company only has two (2) developers right now, including me... And since our senior left, we do a fuckton more work.

I do way more than other trainees in my class and compared to some other colleagues, seriously.

In any case, we got reviews and feedback rounds with our bosses next week, and I wrote a DIN A4 page of reasons why I want to get at least a small raise.

Not gonna read it off, of course, but gonna go along it...
Wish me luck.

I'm a tiny bit happy today.
Recently I've been noticing that I'm developing a tolerance for deeply crowded spaces. I don't know if the AC/DC concert was an effective shock therapy or something.

I'm not at the point where I can comfortably head outside into town by myself yet, but I have a feeling that it's not going to be too long until I can.
Maybe I can even find some joy in "being under people".

Maybe make some contacts, friends, whatever.
The biggest challenge will probably be getting over my, I guess "crippling" isn't the right word, but close-ish to it, self-conscious.
The worst thing is that as of yet, I have no idea why I'm still like that.
I think I know the root cause, but that's not something relevant right now.

Hell, I go out with friends, guys and girls, and eventually it goes like:
>"How come you are not dating someone?"
>"Can't really. Can't go out and fine someone, also I think I'm not good-looking enough."
>"Bullshit, you look awesome."

That's coming from close friends, hence why I don't believe it's just some "oh, he'll feel better if I compliment him" shite.
I somehow am unable to gain self worth from compliments.

[...]

In other news, I got a certificate at the FernUni Hagen for a course in IT project management.
Also, my programming and solution finding/problem solving skills are improving noticeable. I think.
I'm not in Uni or anything, but I feel like I'm getting more competent/professional in my development activities at work.

Contrary to what I stated above, I can gain self worth from good work done.
...which worries me, because I am afraid that eventually I'll only be able to feel good after having worked myself to the metaphorical bone.

In job college, I talk to my classmates.
Turns out, everybody is mostly sitting on their ass doing fuck all at work. They are telling me that I'm a workaholic.
I think that I'm either going mad, or that they are lazy fuckers.

From Wednesday to Thursday evening, three colleagues and I went to the CAS Partner Preview Day & CAS Customer Centricity Forum in Karlsruhe. Lots of talks (mostly boasting about themselves), some workshops and a lot of "networking opportunities".
Stuff which I mostly consider bullshit, but I never would've figured how effective it is to put on a smile and feign interest in things.
Some of that feigned interest turned into actual interest and we "networked" for hours.
It was a good training for social interactions outside my direct comfort zone.

Thank you for reading the ramdump of my mind.
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