What’s the one handicap you have that your immediate peers don’t? Mine is bipolar disorder.

I refuse to call it a handicap. Why are you always stuffing it in peoples face? Most people doesn't know what it is at all and the people that really know will take distance from you (if they're wise almost..). Bipolarity makes and breaks people.

being a coward, i guess?

Social anxiety and depression 😮‍💨

I have peers who are webdevs. But they are learning embedded and desktop dev so they are overcoming their handicaps.

@retoor it’s only fair if you get 6mo of mania and 6mo of depression. But you don’t, do you.

@kiki I'm normal, by default have some manic properties. Rarely experience a mania, but when I have it, I end up locked up. Depression only because of medication. Nobody experiences 6mo mania / 6mo depression.

@retoor that’s my point. It’s not fair — you spend more time all powerless and depressed than smart, powerful and manic. This is why I consider it my handicap.

@retoor makes or breaks people you say… well it broke me.

@kiki reverse that, it's other way around :P

I read this & thought the question was the opposite

umm I have audio processing issues. so I can't remember things said to me. I understand the message behind their words but I can't literally remember the words.. & thusly I take lots of written notes because I have an eidetic memory so I can actually remember things after I write them down

I'll forget social interactions if they were particularly distressing, and then engage with the person again like nothing ever happened. this was super fucked up and it drove me nuts, like I literally forget when people mistreat me on purpose&then come back getting mistreated again. why would nature do this 😩. makes me feel disabled as hell and drives me nuts. I just can't keep a grudge. seems like a massive fucking liability

.. I also have too much empathy. the disability comes in when people are "forcing" their emotions at me and I can't block them out.. I feel what they feel so they overwrite what I feel 😠, can lose self. grosses me out

@kiki if depressed eat b vitamins and anti oxidants

b6 for example is used for inflammation (which is found in depression) and for making neurotransmitters. could be you're low in those after mania. the other day found out coffee makes some jittery cuz of b6 deficiency. increased neurotransmitter action means higher needs

and anti oxidants are just gonna make you feel like a million bucks. you'll never feel fatigue again. fatigue seems to be exclusively caused by toxic things you eat causing oxidative stress

but I guess I don't know anything so there's no point in me saying any of this

@jestdotty I will try it.