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uyouthe
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Bipolar disorder means that you can code for 14 hours straight, sleep for 4 hours and feel refreshed ready for another round. You can make art and you can express your thoughts in creative, kinda alien ways.

But here are tradeoffs that make bipolar disorder a disease:
- everyone around you is an enemy
- they’re all acting together to harm you
- nobody understands you
- they all make fun of you
- if I say what I mean, nobody will understand me. I’ll scare them
- I’m extremely aggressive towards everything: people, things, situations, problems. Computer lags so I scream, smash it, throw it out of the window and buy a new overpriced one
- constant uncertainty about whether am I acting right or not

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  • 1
    Time for some Seroquel. Kiss your long nights anything goodbye though.
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    @SortOfTested no no no no no no no no neuroleptics please. I rather be an active maniac than a vegetable
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    I'm genuinely worried knowing that some of the things apply to me.
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    one of the reasons I am grateful for my kind of person. I can be really calm in a storm
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    @Ranchonyx Yeah I have the same. The bad stuff doesn't apply to me but the first part entirely does 😅
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    I don't think this classifies as a bipolar.. yes, first part sounds like the manic phase, but all the rest..sounds more like a normal 'dev things' (or schizophrenia if anything)..

    With bipolar you usually go from manic to depression phase..but in depression phase you don't give a shit about pretty much anything & everything...so no throwing computer out..you'd be just meh and go to sleep or catatonic mode..

    Anyhow, don't go on any meds unless you really need them for basic functioning. They are meant to help you get back on track, but in the long run, you need to work on yourself & try to get off them or at least minimise the dose.. Detect patterns that get you in the weird moods & try to avoid them and/or learn to cope with it..

    Not every mental health problem (or lack of discipline) classifies as a disorder.. too many people are proclaming to have this shit or that so they can justify their acts.. :/ // not relating to you, this just poped up in my head because here a lot of kids get classified as having adhd & other 'disorders' which gives them special treatment in school (&life) just so they can get away with not studying and doing things in life... I know a lot that actually have it, but I also know a shittone of more who are just abusing this and it makes me angry, because of the 'fakes, noone takes the real cases seriously..
  • 0
    @sladuled do you have a disorder? Do you think you ready to argue with my official diagnosis?
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    I agree i guess
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    - everyone around you is an enemy

    - they’re all acting together to harm you

    - nobody understands you

    - they all make fun of you

    - if I say what I mean, nobody will understand me.

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    But wait, aren't all those things true for most of us ?
  • 1
    @Nanos stop. I remember your situation.
  • 2
    @uyouthe I do.. & no, I don't want to argue. Just stating it seems off to me.. might be that our contries define things differently, that's all.
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    Computer lags so I scream, smash it, throw it out of the window and buy a new overpriced one

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    I remember a neighbour of mine telling me when they did that, now they think twice before doing it, since its expensive to do so !
  • 0
    > (or lack of discipline)

    I notice this is an increasing issue in today's world, I'm reminded of:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/...

    https://theatlantic.com/magazine/...

    Be interesting to hear of uyouthe childhood to see if there is any similarities.
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    > argue with my official diagnosis?

    Having known a lot of professionals in that area, and a lot of patients, I'd say a second opinion is always worth having.

    Which is another way of saying, since the field is so heavily open to interpretation (aka not very scientific.), that your expert could well be wrong.

    Usually I've noticed people who have a stressful life, act in unusual ways.

    Only very few of them actually have anything really wrong with them.

    It usually becomes apparent after talking with them for a while, what kind of problems they have.

    Sadly not problems as so easily fixed, not unless perhaps you move to another country and get away from your family, friends, and local neighbourhood. (Which can do you the world of good!)
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    other 'disorders' which gives them special treatment in school (&life)

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    Reminds me of when I think about not dieting, since where I am, there are benefits in being too fat !

    Sadly I've known folk who have taken that route in life.

    Though I'm not sure I should say sadly, since they had a great life !

    Well, mostly, one was telling me they don't have any interest in sex these days because of it, so I guess there is a downside to free money for being ill !

    Ideally we should be encouraging people to become better.
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    > - I’m extremely aggressive towards everything:

    I notice that is increasing common these days.

    One of the reasons I try to avoid chatting to women, since the moment you say anything wrong, they hate you for life !

    And large men, since the moment you say anything wrong, they want to hit you..

    Probably why in chatrooms today, everyone sits quiet and no one says anything..

    Or folk just post pictures of cute cats, since no one ever gets annoyed bout those.
  • 1
    @Nanos the point you made about huge guys is so accurate. I'm really short and I have been confronted once over something so irrelevant.

    well.... I dont have the strength to throw punches so I just went for his eyes. self defense was my excuse
  • 2
    Yh, I've got the diagnose too after a full blown psychose in 2018. I really hate the psychical health care and the medicine. I don't take them, but afaik almost no bipolar person takes them. There's no medicine for it
  • 2
    @rooter I agree about humankind not being able to cure anything related to our brain, but there is a new Japanese research that ties bipolar disorder to the latent HHV6 and promises a cure
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    I agree on the stuff you say above. But in general I'm just too much. Or too happy or too sad in many situations
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    I'm reminded some years ago taking tablets to make me better.

    I wrote a note beforehand and put it on the mirror in the bathroom, it read:

    "If you can't remember why you are taking the tablets, stop taking them !"

    I found taking medication made me stupid.

    Sure I didn't worry about anything, not even crossing the road..
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    @ilechuks73

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    I dont have the strength to throw punches so I just went for his eyes.

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    I went for the testicles !

    It was quite funny, me holding onto them and squeezing every time he tried to hit me.

    A bit of a Mexican stand-off..

    Eventually he agreed not to hit me if I let go..

    There was a time constraint since this took place over a parking space issue outside a courthouse.. (He was pissed I got a space and he didn't !)

    Some months later we met in a large meeting, where he just mentioned that there had been an "altercation between us" and left it at that..

    I might have told a few people at the meeting, as some folk had a hard time keeping a straight face. :-)
  • 1
    @Nanos I remember you saying this already. Nice strategy though. My intelligence dropped significantly after neuroleptics
  • 2
    before getting a diagnosis, consider if maybe it's because you are surrounded by assholes.
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    for me, bipolar means that i can code for 18hours straight, sleep for 6, code 18 hours straight again, then go to sleep, sleep for 14 hours, wake up, and for the next week or two i'm unable to even get out of bed, let alone work on something.

    rinse, repeat, with varying lengths of those phases.
  • 0
    @Midnight-shcode need to get out more. and this is coming from someone with actual agoraphobia.

    you game? what do you play? what do you do in your free time?
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    @Midnight-shcode I felt this comment in my b o n e s
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