Went to an old employer to drink coffee and talk about an opertunity. During nice talk he mentioned that he can see that I've had a rough time and got what slower. Maybe too slow to still do this kind of job / project. It's my freaking medication :(. It's a great employer and great boss. Really want to make it work.

It hits hard when someone that liked you a lot says that you became slower. Yes, I'm dead inside. Now hire me and let me fix that.

BTW, it's Java. I'm at least faster than the interpreter

For those who says haldol should be banned...
When a schizophrenic/psychotic person experiences psychosis or oneiroid, with everything that is left from who they used to be, they pray for it to end. Yes, haldol causes depressive symptoms, but I bet it feels so sweet when oneiroid, e.g. the single most painful sensation one can experience, fades away. Depression is MUCH preferrable to psychosis.