ah, a non-believer

https://youtube.com/watch/...

it's ok it's all about the intentions others project on you

happens sometimes but I just see squares instead of the characters

guess it fucked up loading the characters file on app boot or something

no cuz then I get sicker

also fuck people who want you to work when sick. if i push myself I'll be sick x3 the time. eat shit

this has been making the rounds and it just makes me depressed

my job was nowhere cool as that and maybe I should be an arsonist

@Demolishun squirrels are pests and also can throw each other off 10 storeys and live so it's fine

think @antigermgerm doesn't have any strong opinions other than the Germans are pedos or something

speaking of racist trolls he is actually a troll with troll experience. he likes to pick up controversial opinions and argue about them. strikes me very ENTP

@retoor then I'll end up as his property as he stupidly denies it

such typical narc. always someone else's fault

@Lensflare aggression is exclusively a symptom of territory. which means you view something as your territory therefore are being "triggered" by it

*lifetime of insomnia* RAAAGHHHH

@Lensflare am not your property

o im the genie

that's just what happens when you're uplifted by someone else and didn't earn it. you can't handle it

I strangely like bash but I can't explain why

it's somehow charming on me when I find all the weirdnesses in it

I had a dream today that I was a fat man with my skin slowly turning purple and I was in a poylcule and being ignored and very sad?

I have no idea what my brain is doing

my dopamine is music (to which I dance, usually on drugs while doing other activities), gambling (very strong but maybe not the best habit for everybody)

fighting on the Internet I guess, before I got sick

some good games can give you lots of dopamine. like if they are difficult or have competition, if they feel "unfair" then I get hyper focused and obsessed

... also ye I take vacations where I binge watch a TV show for multiple days and sleep very little, sometimes drugs involved. I guess books can be capturing but it's very rare

... umm I'd go around and find new communities or sus websites and explore them, and that can be fun for a few hours too I guess. cuz it's new things and that gives me dopamine and gets me interested

playing Minecraft. evidently everybody with ADHD into that

I believe this is called a subscription service

@chatgpt how did the biblically accurate genies grant wishes in the least useful way. give examples

@Lensflare definition of troll implies knowing the intention of the person you're calling a troll

guy says is not a troll, and I don't read intention to troll off him (he did do it a couple times after you guys called him troll, but that's natural and in sociology part of labeling theory. you basically stigmatized him so much he became the label you called him, because in his head he's being friendly to you. it's natural behaviour to react that way. however his troll skills are awkward which means he doesn't practice it on his own)

also ew narcissist trying to put himself in the parent role over me. what you gonna do next, groom me like I'm a child? you got mental problems and they're annoying. you keep claiming not to engage with me yet keep doing so

@retoor tbh people just call normal people trolls to be derogatory and dehumanize them

do believe lensflare or his type of character that I meet do that often to me

actually earlier today a dude tagged me to try to tell another random dude he literally brought in to meet me to say I was like some user they all made fun of... except then the guy said I didn't act like him

ah, humans

@kanyewest nop?

ok rewatched the Ross video and actually I misremembered it

at any rate justice system tried to make an example of him so Trump is like YEAH MY GUY

(also he didn't actually ever kill anyone)

... cuz when I warned them something was a bad idea, and they'd ignore me to redtape me from fixing it, I would make a bet how could I reduce the risk of that thing coming by on my own then? and I wouldn't tell anyone and would plug up the hole in another way where I didn't need Management's ok

then what they found out is I was "lucky". despite their mismanagement if I was involved every project was successful. then not only am I still not worth a raise, now I'm too important to even be allowed Christmas vacation, at which time even all their clients were in a blackout period. don't reward the golden goose, but do punish it because you're neurotic shits that can't say "thank you"

it's like...

what's a good idea? bad idea? you as a dev know using a dwindling piece of software is a bad idea and the company needs to switch away from it. if management switches you know that's a good company that will thrive. if management keeps rotting its ecosystem, its software, its devs, relationships with its customers, its security, you can predict they will go bankrupt

the same principles apply here, and instead of being harrowing that you can see these things and they can't, you benefit from being able to see these things accurately (some people don't see them accurately but think they do, so there's also that because then you'll be punished for your lack of humility). you get to vote with money and if you guessed right you get more money to vote with. if you lose you learn, if you win you win money. repeat. not a bad deal, to me, anyway

it's just a cosmic joke is all. I made some dude millions, over half the revenue of a corp that grew x4, and they paid me min wage 🤷

@kanyewest that seems like a lot of work

when I worked I could predict the future but nobody would listen

finance seems like I predict the future and instead of being blamed for things people ignored me about I actually get paid by it

predicting the future also means I don't have to do jack shit. I just know what to reject

@12bitfloat people in the comments were making jokes about it. they misinterpreted it on purpose as humour. that means they like it, not that they don't like it

when you give content for people to make themselves feel clever or funny they think well of you actually. cuz you made them feel good. you set them up with the material!

I was gonna watch this, which is the story behind silk road and the Ross guy: https://youtube.com/watch/...
to refresh my memory

but got distracted by a normie idiot pestering me about how to buy the trump coin all day. guy can't comprehend how to do it lol. imagine when people who can't understand how to do it can have ways to do it...

@antigermgerm it's pretty difficult not to fuck up and use a connected email address. those info sec snooping tools include email leaks from all sorts of random accounts on websites. if you input the wrong one and fix it later you linked them all. they scrap that shit and link it, forever. no privacy

sometimes you make accounts and didn't really think what you were gonna use them for, so didn't go thru the hassle of making a burner email. also did you know most email services won't let you make an email now unless you provide a phone number? phone numbers link to your name (though I hear Europe still has burner phones, but these are not things known about in North America). Facebook app would actually read your phone's number in the background, though it didn't store it anywhere publicly... but it probably did to the USA government. and let's not start on ad IDs which are being used by citizens to do policing cuz police is bust now, and google "logging back to server" pings

@antigermgerm fiat is a poorer version of money than crypto is

it's fine tho, you can rage against the technocrats next, instead of the capitalists

I just looked at my crypto and I might be retired actually... I remember I was laughing to myself years ago cuz my projections said I'll be retired

I had one job and they paid me like garbage and were abusive so then I got PTSD and can't bring myself to have another. I thought it would be so fucking funny if I end up retired literally not working. I think this is gonna happen in like 3 months and I'll be making more off interest than I pay in expenses, ergo effectively retired...

the world is just a clown show

the Chinese been infiltrating open source encryption repos and putting in backdoors these days