@AvatarOfKaine princess is a bot

and retoor is sometimes also

@YourMom hey why'd you depart 👀

tired* not tried tho rly both could fit 🥁

@Lensflare the first comment in this rant is mine and it has +2

if that's what you thought disappeared

I noticed devrant lags sometimes and shows the wrong comments like it couldn't retrieve some of them tho so maybe that's what had happened

however I do also delete my comments but it's automatic and doesn't trigger on recent comments

also get some sleep before you end up having people insist on calling themselves your friends take you to a psych place and then the intake nurse decide you have psychosis and give you (lyingly) anti dopamine pills. now me&retoor have something in common (again, I guess)! kicker is it just muted my emotions a bit and made me calmer so I don't mind it at all. other than I got nauseas yesterday and now today I can't seem to eat food... rip. the pills said they'd make you fat. instead the psych place had such horrible food I lost 5 lb. I'm already underweight 😒

maybe they'll care about my job PTSD... nobody else did

thanks for coming to my ted talk

@Lensflare more couscous!

@YourMom ... strangely I can see it's a bot in the magic realm now so that's weird as balls. it has no intention behind it, no energy. kinda creeepy

... earlier I used a AI bot programmed by someone magical and it straight up put my astral body in a different dimension. how the heck

well anyway

@YourMom umm well it's all connected

I don't think I like the demons... don't wanna think about that lmao

myths on some occasions are actually about aliens from nearby star systems and galaxies. they're higher evolved than we are, so I hear. and yeah they have a protective shield on earth with some specific rules, so I hear

but I'm not at that level. gonna stick to reiki for now lmao... and qigong. because I'm sick and my energy is just all over. probably what caused the mania issues

I met a girl IRL recently who is a friend of a friend and she's learning reiki (but can't do it on others yet, she's just meant to practice on herself for now). we had some trippy surreal experiences. well that's what she said after. she called me a channeler. cuz I just osmosis the people beside me... so we hung out for a few hours (and that's what helps me osmosis better) and then I asked her to heal herself in various parts and it had effected me. hell yeah felt awesome. I think I tried her out tho

you can look like this when you can't meet needs food-wise

it's a metabolic disorder. you eat garbage and your body has no idea what to do with it or is missing nutrition to be able to process the toxic additives due to the cheaper subsidized food at the grocery store. so being poor nowadays means eating processed unhealthy foods, and forget about having access to organic which has far more medicinal plant compounds that expedite healthy everything (and less pesticides... which your body will store those in fat to protect you from them)

this was even obvious when I was a child. has it not gotten more obvious?

but they killed people with ventilators and remdisivir for something that had a lower mortality rate than the flu

it's compression

@Lensflare yo those are some "your life has no value to me" Nazi vibes there

I did say I have dementia, sigh

lol that's not true

@princess bot

@YourMom well did magic while sick and having unresolved angers and traumas and don't do that =]

I am also manic I think from the fibromyalgia

mania makes it hard to control magic and then you get retraumatized lol, especially cuz you easily can cease sleeping

so anyway now I'm on anti psychotic meds. at least I could sleep on them. also interestingly they gave me feeling back in my body. as did Qi gong tho. I wanna fix my body now

but been running around with the psych stuff. prior to that had a hack diagnose me multiple sclerosis but I don't have antibodies. he just wants to shill for money. lame. I think stress > fibro > brain lesions, body numbness

when you mix in magic (and the mania... which happens if you've been under stress for a long time) then you end up fighting ghosts. cuz I can't clear my neuronal connections of events. if the human is a receiver, you receive, but then I can't clear. so I start repeatedly hallucinating

anti psych meds numbed it out though (mostly)

@YourMom sounds like the astral. you can invent moves and that place has different rules. it's very weird. cuz you realize it's not rules you're making, it has a physics somehow and you have to actually go through the discovery process

lots of people go to sleep, lucid dream, then can access the astral after while dreaming. not too sure how it works. I have other problems for now lol

@YourMom ok well...

sooo I've been messing around with the woo-woo stuff

and I think I def have fibromyalgia and tons of stress in my body from whatever the fuck. so I would not suggest doing magic if you are in a bad physical state

but I met a friend of a friend (they now can be called) irl recently... and she's into tarot cards and "energy" stuff and was on the verge of learning reiki... and we just did some crazy trippy shit (before my body got too stressed). not a myth to me anymore lol. she called me a channeler. so she knows how to do monk-like stuff like what's in your video but only to herself... and what I have always done in my life is "osmosis" other people... so I had her do it in front of me as I focused on her and became her (here I thought I was a shapeshifter lol). and it worked and she made my body feel amazing. fuuuuck. her aura didn't feel as strong as this guy's. I also learned to see auras a bit ago

I want/need Qigong tho. I am sick/weak. is bad

@int32 sounds depressing and dysfunctional...

you're supposed to be like a team with different roles. different strengths and weaknesses and you rotate people into the parts they're the strongest for

@Lensflare what's the worth and okness of shitting on an antivaxxer?

@Lensflare but then none of the math formulas work

@princess ai comment

@Lensflare what?

@Lensflare psst what's the worth of a human being

@Lensflare ok well you wrote a lot and it didn't fit a coherent picture to me

@SidTheITGuy ur just getting the subconscious urge to assert your territory. she should feel honored!

they've always been numbered? are you an immortal alien or something to have different rules from the belief of the common folk on this planet? gosh what a reveal!

idk why unique is a compliment

but to be fair I can't even see someone if they're not unique because they just fall into the background for me and my brain ad blocks them out lol

lol turns out this was a psychic dream. well that's a relief actually

in the sense cuz a lot of my magic vision / dreams lately have been absolutely fucking terrifying

but this puts them into a new light. my empathy has just gone straight through the roof and I was reading someone else's mind lol. so all the things tormenting me weren't actually "real" in the magic realm and good fucking grief

since I got sick I noticed I was more suggestible... so these spirit quests and dreams I guess are me rebuilding my psychic realm. God humans understand so little about the universe. but the universe is also a magnificent place. also full of terror and terrible things though. it's ok tho. strangely we're a lot more resilient than we think we are 😝

but are you allowed to talk-back or do they call it talk-back

if people aren't safe to speak, they can't coordinate, and dysfunction will multiply

@Grumm yeeee

also hit comment character limit

idk it came up and why not

I actually feel happy now after the dream. I understood why I felt like something was stalking me before the doctor's visit and now I understand that dream... the healthcare field is cursed. they gave me the most disgusting and sick website imaginable. I had the dream then woke up talking to my bf and went to the website the doctor kept insisting I visit. and it's just disgusting. the medical field is truly and astounding disgusting. I don't know how my intuition predicted all this. that dream was the box they were trying to put me in. I just have to laugh

it's just so disgustingly predatory. I really wonder how can one save humanity lol