@whimsical you feel for them but I don't. banality of evil

people don't make the same concessions to me. do they care what would make me feel better? never, not even if it had cost them nothing lol

so I don't care how they feel either

I keep using AI right now to look up a game's mechanics and it becomes very apparent how much AI bullshits because every time I ask any question it just assumes it's dwarf fortress or rimworld or just outright makes mechanics (or stats) that sound plausible

with every message I ever send it I have to ask it to cite sources

thing is search websites "stopped working" around the time AI got released. so now instead of typing in a search URL or clicking a bookmark I need to write in text "look up sources and only use them". sigh

(though for this game documentation is just non-existent and I'm too lazy to browser reddit and steam forums where someone did at some point figure out the mechanic. actually the whole game's source code is on GitHub... doubt AI could read it and infer the mechanics though, I tried to get it to be a search engine for 8 duplicate codebases of mine before and that was a disaster)

make AI better pls. ofc they won't. its just there for anti-human elite politics🤷

@Lensflare it was on whole of YouTube for me

and it happened before the COVID era so it was before I became a conspiracy theorist and had the wool removed from my eyes on various societal things. I totally believed everything society until that point especially because of my abusive job where it was normalized that people lie but it's for "good reasons" so I was making excuses for everybody's lying all the time even in my spare time like a good little renfield lol

@Lensflare i never said a bad word and I've been shadow banned for like 8 years lol

I'm not sure my comments ever show up

C is leftist? they got static typing!

users normalized their behaviour so they keep behaving

but if you say you don't wanna use vs code in a technical discord you get the whole mod team brought down on you for being "political"... they killed my atom after taking over github and saying they won't kill it. lasted only a year! made to break your dreams and hopes

@whimsical *holds back rage at your idealic situation*

i tried to look up agencies here... didn't even need to sign up. they had job boards. at best there were 1-3 jobs on there for software developers. and you don't work for them... they aren't paying you.. they take a cut of your pay instead. cuz that's how it works in USA/Canada

NL is a country of farmers

whereas USA and Canada are bureaucratic middle managers

farmers are down to earth and speak truth. middle managers optimize for bullshit and fake status, covert racism instead of fun overt racist jokes, and know absolutely nothing about the real world or even acknowledge physical reality in any way, they just speak in buzzwords and use magical bullshit for decision-making I call "politics" where it's all about in-group signalling and cliques like it's a high school of the nihilism of nerds and the snobbery of popular kids in one individual

@whimsical in NL maybe. that NL stalker guy who I had... i am so angerly jealous of his situation. he doesn't even look for jobs, he uses some kind of agency. he always works from home. doesn't do any work for 3-6 months at a time. average time for him to get fired was 9+ months because the laws protect him so much it seems. he keeps getting fired because he just spends all his time at home arguing on the internet instead of coding anything, and yet these agencies still keep handing him job after job even though he gets fired at every single one of them for ceasing to work for months at a time

he's also high on weed 24/7 (except when he quits for a couple weeks) to the point of incoherence, AND one time someone contacted his employer giving them his posting history about pedo shit and he got fired -- BUT HE'S STILL JUST BEING GIVEN JOBS. I never even heard of him go on an interview. he's just handed these things even though he doesn't work

NL is a totally different world

it's like nobody actually wants to hire anyone. idk what's up with humans

maybe i'll go work for a games testing company... I don't see a future in "software development". I like writing software but I really hate the work environment

I was using AI to look into organizational psychology (which informs HR practices) and they categorize motivation into 3 categories. calling (can underpay, will withstand abuse. think their job has meaning for the world), career which is apparently ACHIEVEMENT orientated and that's what all the programmer jobs are turns out and I think that's probably what makes it toxic because "competitive" aka backstab, and job orientation which is just for the money/benefits

first time I heard of the word career it was a higher up threatening I wouldn't have one. I spent years trying to figure out what it meant. nobody told me it was achievement. but that's why those useless certificates. they're ACHIEVEMENTS. like useless high score hoops. explains a lot

@CaptainRant seee, hire this man. he still has his humanity intact

@whimsical ... plus I didn't even have mania. it's nervous system dysregulation, not dopamine related

@whimsical seriously? lmao

sad indeed

@daniel-wu it is in brazil

in USA seems the corn lobby wanted to be the defacto alcohol fuel, and they had banned import of brazilian sugar cane. obviously corn is not the best for making alcohol (and all of it is grown with glyphosate in USA...) lol

true on the corrosive part. I don't know the other stuff I don't even have a driver's license at 34 lol

... so I got this genius idea of having AI quiz me stuff about this category of information instead of "teaching" me it because I hate it "explaining" things to me

... question one and this is like school all over again where my answer is more right than the teacher's so I get marked wrong

BOTH TOO GOOD AND TOO BAD AT THE SAME TIME

i'm looking up systems design and I'm confused why these concepts are in this random categorical cloud

what questions did you miss, I'm curious

wait i thought you were the dev of this platform

why is the application so fat. can we get it on a treadmill with a cheese on a string in front of it

also idk what system design even is but I am apparently simultaneously too good a dev for anyone and too newbie at the same time, so I guess it could always be worse

you gotta admire the germans for their staunch efficiency

it liberates them from their sins I think

is he trolling or is he so ADHD he forgot

same as dev salary is good and off pattern for businesses

running businesses higher income ceiling than in corps. corps fuck you and take all your extra effort profits for themselves

@Lensflare CHAAAOOOOSSSS

come on aren't you a nerd or a fake programmer. dnd true chaos. don't matter if good or evil. JUST CHAOS

will trade my success in love for success in money

should've been a mail order bride after all just like the incels kept telling me I guess

@Lensflare dunno how that's a conspiracy, is mainstream science since actual fertility doctors. the last paragraph's intro sentence was a joke, and the symptoms listed there are identified as official symptoms of birth control. that's why you're required to get a doctor's approval to take it where I live, cuz they're trying to ask about the clots/depression/fatness (though they don't do a good job of it, they just ask how you are but don't specify what they're fishing for)

the infertile forever tho apparently europeans get that info (some dude yelled at me from EU like I should've known already) but we don't get that info here in canada/USA

@Lensflare it's actually very hard to get pregnant tho

lots of women in the west have issues. average having kid rate when you're trying is 30% per year

also considering the fertility doctors it seems like you can only get pregnant in a 2-3 day window every month. a form of contraceptive is to just track that window and not bone then and bam contraception but I haven't tested it so who knows

DONT BELIEVE THE HORMONE LOBBY. gives you clots and makes you depressed and fat and also infertile forever but they don't tell you that contrary to european's thinking they do (they don't here)

who should I have 7 kids with for everything to end up well

@Hazarth no people just said all the time i'd end up successful because I was intelligent and had the right personality traits apparently

they even did this when I was an adult. so people refuse to network with me because they think I'm made for something better. ok...

... and then if I do get a job interview they think I'm so incompetent I need to sign up to html weekly newsletters?

@SidTheITGuy I have an interest in efficiency. I do not find indians attractive. but my capitalism is offended

@SidTheITGuy clearly indians too rich. why have access to protein in diet and make muscle if not to take off shirt. waste of resources

strange target audience. long-term thinking signals to catch short-term thinkers

i made -1.7k this month and probably gonna owe taxes if i ever get around to it

my depression knows no bounds