remdesivir

and the vaccine batches were not made the same

1/4th of them were placebo (iirc the ratio correctly). which was sus as all fuck. because you wouldn't do that.

and 1 in 10 batches were exponential in symptoms and mortality rate. 9 in 10 batches were pretty benign
there was a website like "how bad was my batch?" and when I looked up my first dose it was one of the very deadly batches. years later when I went to look again the batch info had been scrubbed. lol... and the total number of people who supposedly got my batch reduced by 99% like nothing ever happened lol

but I think basically most people were fine unless they got one of the bad batches

and yeah nothing will get done about it. turns out humans are pretty vile throughout human history. it's nothing new. sure kicks your faith in humanity due to current civilizations' nice rosey gleam though

@YourMom when I got sick 15 or so people came into the hospital on ambulances. the receptionist asked me if an accident had happened

I've been to that hospital many times now cuz that vax fucked me up. but it was never that busy. worst you got was 3 people maybe the whole wait time

I don't know if people are still sick from these things. I started trending up slowly in January and now I think my higher consciousness functions are coming back but very slowly which is annoying. a lot of the vaccine injured disappeared a couple years in, some though just woke up one day and just got better and didn't know why. that's the kicker. we tried everything. we could never figure out how to fix what the vaccine did. I tried everything. I don't think a single thing I did helped. it lessened the symptoms but whatever makes people ill I have no idea. I think I have to keep eating beef liver and maybe that helped but ultimately I think your body just somehow has to figure it out

btw Canadian subs on reddit are a bunch of banned people (the member counts) and the activity in the subs doesn't match the number of members they supposedly have

and then the mods of reddit keep giving new Canadian subs (when the older ones get taken over by the propagandists) a hard time... so they never take off

Canada is just gone as a country. got the WEF stooge just milking it for all its money as we stall resource extraction which is the only thing this country has as economic value since we brain drained to USA the whole time. all the while we complain about indians or something... and other indians totally overtake our industries and cities rapidly which is a little funny

and our country would rather take orders from China and go to war with USA because orange man bad. it's so fucking dumb

oooh that's why the ostrich shit is happening

gah I hate how even alt news never mentioned that. and I'm considered a conspiracy theorist on this site!

this post was very Canadian oddly enough

@antigermanist indians make the most money out of any demographic in america now actually. been for a few years

once they get into a company they fire the people and only hire Indians and it just spreads. it's kind of nuts

ikr but we are but slaves

@YourMom damnit wish I didn't watch that last night. made me feel awful. and I keep thinking about it. depression fuel

thank you for your service

cost cutting procedures lead to less reliability over time

@Lensflare sounds interesting

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I have decided because I am fucked language-wise because I speak English and Quebec discriminates against the English by law, and I have job PTSD and a giant job gap and my brain is fogged up by the illness I got to the point I can barely function much less make code to the quality I did before I got sick...

that my best bet is to learn a game engine and make games and maybe then I could not starve to death. so been learning Godot for 3 days now. wish me luck I guess. as I have erratic emotions and thoughts because post-brain damage that happens and you grief your old personality and etc lol

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what do people misunderstand? hmm they seem to pick something random to "understand" in some weird way that just shows their projection. it's never consistent towards me, but consistent to the primary culture group they belong to. so I never feel like they misunderstand me, more like they misunderstand themselves I guess if there's misunderstanding to be had?

ewww, french

could make friends at your job and have them take you with them I guess

I had one former co worker try to take me to a c# job. another time I went to a dungeons and dragons game for my first time and the dungeon master offer I work at their web shop without even knowing what I did (which was pretty light on front end lol)

granted I didn't accept either of those for various reasons but still. when I rejected the c# position the guy thought it was me thinking I couldn't do it because it was a new language, and he was like "bah you'll learn it" (I actually did c# in school and it's not much different from java, I just didn't like it and didn't really understand "careers" at the time)

idk nobody ever cared about my marks. wish they did cuz my GPA equivalent was 120% tehe (people kept failing and the teachers kept curving the marks)

I also really gotta wonder about being good at school really not reflecting being good at life. I wonder if learning to be good at school ends up a disability in life

Mark Carney was friends with Epstein so Canada I guess

we also have some wild corpo rich people pedo rings up here apparently and lots of missing kids nobody wants to go look for apparently

backend js doesn't change much

people are still using express even tho koajs came out like 8 years ago

who is they even

AI seems to take out all the interesting parts of a text and just make it really boring reductive stuff

I want reverse AI summaries. just the interesting parts

people seem so bad at their jobs idk why I can't just have one of theirs

being rejected and gaslit by healthcare professionals as they view me without standing and belittle me. and then later some people took me to the hospital (even though I was looking for a place to sleep...) and suddenly I get "full service" and like 10 people looking at me and a diagnosis for an expensive disease (bullshit). uhhuh.

seems to me people just do the opposite of what you ask them all the time. where's the respect in that?

estrogen does add elasticity

@YourMom pretty sure he's in the spirit of bill gates' book about how to lie with statistics

he seems to advocate for social manipulation and tries to do quite a bit of it in his book imo

I just use it as a faster Google search

it hallucinates too much and needs too much handholding

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I had AI write simple demo things and those still needed testing and tweaks. like stuff there's a dozen GitHub repos for

opus was pretty good though. but nobody would use it because it's massively expensive and capped. and even it has limits. at some point you run out of context window. but it made for a great philosophical back and fourth for a couple hours before it degraded. wouldn't be enough for an app but enough to figure out a semi-complex architecture or feature

for what it's worth I always thought you had a great attitude so it's funny. you were always joking and shit and seemed quite chill

what I get from this is this isn't normal org behaviour. that gives me hope

also cheers. some people calling themselves my "friends" (and have since ditched me because I wasn't into the mental health club) dropped me off at a mental ward and they gave me anti psychotics which made me depressed. I kept asking to be removed from them but the psychiatrist kept playing mindgames on me. eventually I just quit on my own despite the fear mongering about quitting yourself and I'm _still_ fucking depressed from this shit. I need a job and I can barely bring myself to make food, much less be able to code. I stopped coding in the entirety and I'm surprised if a day goes by where I'm not crying at least 2 hours. l. o. l.

the world is a fucked up place

you'd think this would give money to passion projects but in reality it leads to companies rejecting people unless they're doing open source so then open source / passion projects enshittify

it was written in old books so it must be true

IT'S NOT JUST X, ITS ALSO Y-IER

so well thought out

here I thought it was deference over everything