24 years completed on this earth and i still have no fucking clue what my tomorrow will be like

Happy birth anniversary.

Don't worry, it gets worse with time.

And with age you oft forget what yesterday brought.

Id argue that's part lf the fun

Enjoy that. The more planned tomorrows you have - the faster the time flies. The less you get to enjoy...

Today is shit, tomorrow the pile of shit is going to be a bit bigger
Until the day the shit gets so huge you start only seeing it and nothing else

The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown

H.P. Lovecraft

Tomorrow the sun will rise in the east, stuff will fall at 9.8m/s^2, some other form of energy will become heat somewhere.
The rest is fairly unpredictable.

Pretty much the entirety of science is just about trying to predict phenomena. And no one published a paper on how to solve the decidibility problem (yet?), so I guess that as a regular unidirectional time traveler, you are in good company.

happy birthday.
i'm 33 years in this hellhole and i still have no idea each day how is it even possible that my next day happens.

no idea what to do, how to make it so that i don't feel like utterly lost utter useless helpless hopeless shit, no idea where and how to find people to not feel alone...

just no idea what the point of all this bullshit is.