have deleted the last rant as it was depressing and stuff and i don't want to depress you lovely people 🤗.

Sorry to all those who read it 😅.

This is the only social media that doesnt depress me nowadays

Shiieet ... I lost my appetite to learn new things and technology 😐😔 this pendemic need to stop asap.

Did I get old or did I just finish plucking all the low hanging fruit?

When I started on a programming journey about a decade ago everything feel exciting and I learn a lot of things per day (variable,loop,method,class,---etc)

Now a decade later I am more concern with the overall system design,algorithms usage (Big O Notation),how reliable the system it,and how the configurations are set up and how easy is it to change them.

I now notice that I don't really learn anything learn new.Everything feel the same.

Want redundancy? Use more server

Want faster performance? Make a parallel system.

Want program to run on low end device? Think about how memory and storage will be used in system.

Is this a stage everyone went through like puberty? or I am just having a mid life crisis?

PS : I haven't even reach 30 yet but I feel too old.

Fuck ssh. It does 4 things at once and i couldn't get it to do one. I have some pi's and want a shared directory on each of them. On a server i created a user for that and mounted its home directory on a pi, it worked. I did some lockdowns (no shell, only sftp allowed, login only via keyfile), but i was still able to mount it on boot.

Now i had to migrate this setup to another server. It took me a while copying all the configuration etc. All i got for that was a error-message. I figured out the users home-directory had to be owned be root, fixed that, got another error message. Somehow scp didn't use sftp but the login shell which is /usr/sbin/nologin. That made scp (and sshfs) fail, even though it perfectly works with the other server.

I gave up and removed all the setup. I'll find another distributed filesystem for that (but not samba or nfs, those are way to complicated). Those are the setbacks that depress me.

!rant

I don't know about you, but I keep trying to push myself into learning new stuff and studying the hardest jobs to do in IT, but I currently work as web developer and find myself loving what I do...
So I was thinking for a moment: why keep trying to have a great carrier and earning lots of money, having a nice car and a hot tub? Why not just working in a small company or as a freelance and do what I really enjoy without the headache?
But then I fear that I would depress because I would never know my limits, what I could do with my life... I fear that I would regret not having reached the top. Not the top of the world, but the top of myself.... Because if you know what you CAN'T do, then you can rest with a smile on your face.

Don't you think the?

Sorry for the long post, I'm high as fuck!

easy: i give up on my attempts to have social life as they're unsuccessful anyway, and the time i save on not attempting i can use for wallowing in lonely depress... i mean coding!