Some companies: asking for a developer, must have 5 years of experience. Must know C#, php and Python. Also expert in html css react angular and vue. Salary: scrubs. Haha good look looking for the ultimate developer senior for €1800 a month :’)

Im browsing to webdeveloper vacancies all day today. Appearently every company thinks they are working with or on state-of-the-art technology. This term is raped and abused for sure!

Angular test for a company: they are asking me to implement a filter on a table using rxjs. Me, no real rxjs experience, set up complete new page, new table with angular material and a working filter. Lol, ductape solution successful!

Good day today. Got two job interviews planned for the next 14 days!

Updated an online profile on a jobsite this morning for a frontend job. Got called this afternoon:

Recruiter: “i have this great frontend opportunity for you. Are you interested and can i mail the vacancy over?”

Me: “yes i’m looking for something so mail it and i’ll get back at you”

A few moments later...

Recruiter mailed a backend function

This is why people don’t like to work with recruiters.

Hooray, i got laid off! Time for something fresh and new. All jokes aside: this happens every 2 years. I need help.

Me and my gf are looking for a house. Since we’re both on temporary contract we want a declaration of intent. For arranging a decent mortgage. My gf get’s called and signed within a day, getting compliments and a thumbs up.

I get called after three days; yeah eh we need to talk about this. I can’t sign this right now. A talk with both director and HR. Let’s get stressed...

So I’m the frontend developer in this company. I am the one with 10 years of experience when it comes to html, css and js.

How can it be then that I’m not invited to frontend meetings?

I checked the meetings colleages have and came across a excel sheet. My name is mentioned about 10 times in this sheet. Which was what the meeting was about. However I am not a part of this? Wtf?

I asked for first design feedback in weeks. I got a pissed off answer that he is losing patience. Seriously? YOU are losing your patience? Like you are the one working on this day in day out haha. Fukkoff

We had some PR’s this morning. Colleage rewrote an app. Restructured everything. Broke some things. Not a single comment and merged to master.

I get questions like: WhY dO yOu PuT a BuTtOnPrEsS aNd A mOuSeCliCk HeRe?

FOR ACCESSIBILITY ASSHOLE!!! SOMETHING YOU OBVIOUSLY NEVER HEARD OF!!!

And here I am. All alone. Struggling with Angular. Not getting any help. Not getting any further. *sigh*

So, I’m working with Angular now since December. A bit off and on. And there is this app on my plate. And I’m f’n stressed since I don’t know Angular all that well and, things need to get done.

So I try often things by myself and often find myself staring at my screen feeling like I’m to understand Chinese.

Today and yesterday I got loads and loads of feedback and I’m trying to implement this all, and doing the best I can.

Although I’m stressed and a month ago I actually took a week off because of a burnout/Boreout.

So meanwhile, I’m doing some therapy and try and stop the negative thoughtflow. But I’m also feeling very lost and alone in this project. Because my questions don’t get answered.
We have to work from home and also we have to work less since the company is not doing very well in this crisis.

Also before the whole shithole began I was looking for another job because I lack the confidence that I will keep this current one. Still looking and two rejections further.

I’m trying meditation to cope with all this.

Yesterday I had another job interview. This time from home via Skype. Today I was blown off. I was not technical enough according to the company.

This company was working with an ancient cms nobody ever heard of and made Sass sound difficult and new.

Good luck in the Stone Age fellow devs. Make sure you upgrade your pc to Windows 7.

So i had the second talk with this company today. The backend developer somehow expected me to know all four benefits of jQuery. What the hell dude?

Nobody knows everything.

I’m not a big fan of jQuery period.

I was in a meeting with the designer, the backend guys and a marketing person this morning. They talk about a frontender like i’m not even here.

I have a job interview this week so hopefully this will soon indeed be the case.

My gf got a new job and needs to learn some programming. Hope she likes it.

On the other hand i appear to have a bore-out from work. So sick at home now and having to visit the doctor tomorrow. Ofcourse i’ve been going through the future conversation like a 100 times.

But i don’t think it’s a good sign if you burst out in tears at your job right?

If you are looking for a new job elsewhere, how open and honest about thos would you be with current company/colleages? I’m a bit tired of making up excuses about this...

Crawling around in a legacy project. Need to rewrite 500 lines of SCSS, to regular CSS. Fuck it. Runs compiler, beautifier and copy paste that shit.

Socalled Sr Frontender... doesn’t close div tags. Common dude. You are as junior as they come XD

One day the full stack developer knows to explain angular in great detail really clearing things up for me. Lately he has a go f* attitude. Basically refusing any explanation at all. Not that he owes me, but he is the chosen one. The one with actual angular experience. And the only one.

Other teammember isnt doing or caring shit at all but is screaming about senior skills any way.

I need to get out.

But there are no jobs :( feel like ive seen it all and seriously thinking about a career change. Maybe start my own business. Who knows.

Company is celebrating new awards. Whole dev team basically says fuck you we have better things todo and isn’t attending for champagne.

They are thinking of hiring a freelancer for Senior Frontend development.

I made a quick calculation but if they want to rebuild this entire site in Angular it’s gonna cost them at least €100.000. And they are dutch *kuch* cheapskates.

And i spoke to an old colleague who’s interested in the senior Frontend vacancy we have. So he had a tip that i told my direct colleagues about. “I expect a senior frontend developer to come with a lot more than that”. People need to lower their expectations. Seriously. Be. Fucking. Content. For. Once!

Yes but you see this function everywhere so why is it so hard for us to implement?

Next time i’m gonna say that this function is everywhere, but why is it so difficult to design?

Working on a bug that in my opinion never worked. “Sr. Dev” dares to say the function has worked before. I’m a 100% sure it never did.
“Yes but everything is being tested before we go live.”

Dude, we have a monkey testing our stuff are you serious!?

Im done here with the discussions about the capabilities of a senior person. They are looking for a senior frontender and everything being said makes me feel less welcome by the day. Being a frontender myself.

Mark my words: they are looking for a replacement and i’m fired this summer.

Talking over an assignment for an angular app a couple of months ago: responsiveness was not important and not a part of the scope. Its for internal use and nobody will do this on his phone.

Today the designer, next to me (on his iPad). With a look on his face like he sees water burning, why isn’t it responsive?

Back of two weeks holiday i have to readjust to being new in angular development again. The longer i work on this app the less overview i’m creating. I feel like throwing it all away and start over now.

Part of the PR feedback was the use of capitals and the conventions. I tried to look up some backup documentation of angular in the styleguide regarding this topic. Didnt find any.

His answer was that it’s a C# convention. DUDE IM NOT PROGRAMMING IN C# AM I ?! You are mixing up conventions between ts, js, ng and now C# how the fuck am i ever going to follow this?!

So i’m making my first Angular app here. I commited the first code setup and shot in the PR. I got 40+ comments so i’ve been fixing them all day yesterday.

A part of the comments i don’t understand yet so i ask if the colleage can watch with me and explain ehat how and why.

What does this nitpicker motherfucker do? Add more fucking comments to the PR and totally ignores my requests for explanation. Fucking anti social dick.