Share your desk!

This is 80% of time my desk, besides this kitchen (also living room) table.

I can sit here for eight hours straight without standing up. No, I don't have any back issues or smth.

I wonder how your workplace looks like

There you go.

@SoldierOfCode wow, books. I had laying a book open in this room for a month without touching it. Made me feel very sophisticated

How not much room I have for source code on this laptop.

Edit: it's a x270 laptop. I have three of those. Running xubuntu on it and it is blazing fast. i5, 8Gb memory. Decade old. Price: 200,- EURO

Where I sit 20% of time. A pillow for my bootii. These chairs are not comfortable. Even the pillow fails. Often hard to stand up. If it was softer, I would prefer it above a desk chair.

Yep, I decided. I gonna get a decent kitchen chair

@retoor I mean, I'm a student, what do you expect lol
I have an exam in 2 days, hence the books

@SoldierOfCode you're a teacher AND a student. I can imagine that you spend a lot of time talking to you yourself. Giving yourself grades

We should do community driven weekly rants

^^

@atheist yeah, i have much to tell regarding development but not much to rant. Everything is going fine

@retoor really good to hear 🫶

you fukkin amateurs

@Liebranca how's your new job? Still waiting for you at matrix. A lot of coding discussions there lately

Won't show my home workplace as it's a mess. This is in the office.

I'm not sharing pictures of me bed

@retoor The codebase is big and fairly complex, but I'm getting used to it. Did some UI stuff, fixed a minor input bug, will probably look into another one tomorrow. But I keep getting sidetracked with other stuff everytime I end my shift, as in I barely think about code until the next day. Maybe I've become boring already.

@Ranchonyx holy fuck, i worked in a place that looked EXACTLY like that. Could've been the same building

This is the most current pic i have (a bit over a yr ago), unless you count while ive been sick stuck on my couch with an odd laptop stand... but the only times ive tried taking a pic of that, my doggo insists on being in primary focus.
My couch area does double as a secondary work station... since im not good at not working, our servers are in my living room so for major updates im just directly in front of them. ½ my coffee table also lifts up and out so its not too bad.

Office now vs pic is about the same, just the chair is black/grey without a broken piston and instead of an overused neay decade old laptop there's 3 relatively large screens attached to a hidden tower.

I can't take a valid pic today cuz id need to move a ton of documents and some models, etc., or go through the pic blurring tons of shit... it's a 'catch up on all the administrative bs and legal docs, to create, organise, account for and properly store' weekend...*sigh*

Tons of this crap cuz i was ill for months

Oh... what's not shown in my pic... that's my office... i have too many... i guess technically theyd be hobbies though i occasionally do them for profit, mostly to gain charitable contribution write-offs... the IRS hates me.

So that white table is electronics(and repairs)/microcontrollers, etc... and also drawn/painted art stuff, theres a large wood workbench next to it mostly for glass and small metalwork supplies and fixing things like my glasswork bandsaw... then a small welding table with an affixed torch for glass, a mini kiln, and a 5ton heated press, lastly a wood cube that's a folded up sewing/embroidery table with all those things inside. Then ofc the door.

Im pretty sure i have more tools and powertools(that actually get used) than a typical career building contractor (the majority are in my garage with the large kiln).

@MammaNeedHummus

Not sure if you're serious... but i actually have a workstation/desk set up right next to/over my bed. It's basically one of those floating desk things that is supposed to go on a wall so you can stand and work. I wanted a valid spot for a TV in my room (esp since until extremely recently i was forced to be in my bed 'resting' about 20% or more of the time normal people have awake/active)...

So i figured i might as well have a little smart tv so i could watch charts or switch it to a remote monitor for my systems. If i use one of those pillows that are for sitting up on a bed, its perfect place/height of a bed desk.

Actually typing this out is def giving some mental credit to the occasional complaints of some friends, that "everything is work" to me.

Nice try CIA

@awesomeest what cozy.

Amazing. I only own one set of screwdrivers and a few arduinos and esp32's. Bricked half of arduinos

@retoor
a good portion of my nice things (pro cookware, commercial grade bounce house, large kiln, diamond coated band saw, digital embroidery\sewing machine, etc.) ive been slowly collecting since childhood.

i didnt use to understand why people didnt seem to believe me when i answered their questions, with plans decades in the future... like at 6 when i traded pokemon cards off my 10yr old brother for perceived monetary gain, he cried to my mom after i genuinely thanked him for the ~74$... my mom asked to see the cards... then how id play with them if they were in those hard plastic cases... "... so when I'm like 30 ill sell them for 1000s of dollars." or the kiln i bought for 3k @12 with $ from repairing pcs and making sites for businesses... i wouldn't get the usb programmed one cuz "tech changes too quickly so it might not work in 20yrs".

now i kinda get it... only conceptually... most kids saying shit like that dont actually understand these things.

@awesomeest well you're making an educated guess that certain preconditions will happen in the future

people don't think like that. to me it looks like they don't find that information as relevant or something. they believe in mysticism /superstition of cause and effect and don't analyze it or something -- so assume everyone else is also doing the same and not actually making an educated guess built on a model of how they've observed the physics of the world to work

we might have technology and feel "smart" but people don't do anything different than rain dance for outcomes now than they did thousands of years ago -- and they project and assume you are doing the same. when obviously you can think, so it's different, but you can't notice something more advanced than your function because p != np (I don't actually know what this means) -- they can't simulate your existence within their consciousness so they think you think like they do

you might as well be a magician doing miracles

@jestdotty so often i wish you knew german... i know youve mentioned not being a fan of lyrics in your music... but i bet a few of the ones that keep coming to mind, when reading some of your commentary, would entertain you a nudge beyond your anti-lyric threshold.

i came across this the other day...
https://lowlatentinhibition.org/wha...
seems right up your alley. so im curious of your viewpoint on it.

still undecided if i think it's real or one of those overgeneralised conditions that slowly builds a cult following in the shadows of the internets...or really any of those things that seems somehow adjacent and\or oddly akin to late 90s\early 00s 'psychics' with massive audiences, likely using the set from some televised baptist church... just reading desperate, gullible people with statistics.

that said, if it's real, i probably have it.

@jestdotty ok... reading those first 2 definitely felt like a momentary shrooms trip.

1. im not sure how you plan to "fix" brain damage... or even why you believe to have it and where.
brain damage, physically speaking, outside of early childhood (when you still have stem cells) can't be physically repaired. the closest to being 'fixed' is similar to what happens if you become a chronic drug user. the damage still exists, but your neural pathways often remap, trying to circumvent dead spots and restore functionality.

2. i still dont think you know what dementia is.

3. autism can be more likely or severe from brain damage... but most of the scientific world agrees it's caused by several genetic mutations.

4. i have never heard\seen anyone call intelligence autism... until now. there's plenty of studies relating neurotypical IQs to autistic. maybe a very minor diff, likely just standard deviation.

@jestdotty

im not sure if you missed the part where i explicitly said that im still undecided if it's at all valid\real or if it's simply akin to another shallow tactic that preys on desperation and gullibility.

your belief that everyone can just turn it off... ive tried since childhood... only a few circumstances actually get my brain to stop... unconsciousness... like gen anesthesia, a seizure\total syncope... very rarely, intense exhaustion or physical overstimulation. normal (4me) sleep, i still process external stimuli.bso technically i should be dead

your best, quickest option for regaining(increasing) brain function is Psilocybin-- shrooms.
studies show 24h after 1 dose, mean rate of increased growth\length\activity of dendritic spines (like little, wavy archs of electrical conduits, responsible for a lot of systemic neural activity) increased over 10%.
+ a great, non-NSAID anti-inflammatory. NSAIDs=internal bleeding 4me. had cervical to brain stem swelling... huge help

@jestdotty you either have an extremely strange, possibly skewed perception, or are around some exceptionally strange people.

science (biology) doesnt have a direct definition of gene_x==Autistic... theyve identified several (~100)gene mutations connected to autism. more of the genetic mutations=more likely to fit criteria of autism diagnosis.

ive noticed a disturbing, imo, trend with early 20s kids and teens, apparently, trying to be defined as some level of autistic, like it's a fashion statement.

don't get me wrong, i do think there's a constant increase in people with autism... which makes total sense genetically. i also firmly believe that autism, innately, isnt a disability... I actually hypothesise that it's a form of evolution (i have similar views on cancer). but its cringe-worthy how its apparently being overused like a style element.

ofc theres people claiming autism for disability$… oddly less disturbing to me

@jestdotty seems almost like pride-- innately confusing to me. i think i understand basic pride, do\achieve something good=feel euphoric pride chemicals. i dont get 'pride' for things like genetics(IQ, hair\eye colour, etc), a birthplace, or anything else you had no part\say in.

@jestdotty
brain damage... like cells being damaged isnt typically (or proven to be) repairable. how your brain works on an electrical level is different.

its like if you were trying to cross over a big gap in a mountain range... youve done it before, it was simple\easy cuz there was a well constructed stone bridge. but now that bridge has a big crumbling hole in it. if you pretend the hole isn't there, you're fked... since you're in the mountains, u probably have some rope and climbing gear.,. you're not gonna be able to fix the bridge, but there's likely several ways to make that connection\transfer to the other side...
ofc some are better than others.

have a short rope and some climbing spikes, grappling hook... the rope can't just reach the other side, but if you secured it to a stable part of the bridge- then threw the hook and it caught now there's a potential path,.. more rope\gear\etc and you have more choices for more circumstances... dendritic spines are like the rope

@awesomeest don't let "them" trick you with autism. It's a stupid list with opinions where you match with if diagnosed. Ofc, you can be in trouble often when matching that list, but you don't have to. It's just a way to say to people 'You're different".

I don't have autism but it was expected because i'm bipolar as fuck (few times arrested in a mania, that level, spend much time in psychitric hospital). Not the way of happy now, sad tomorrow. It's in long periods. Besides that i'm also not a very sensitive person or so. While not having a mania, totally normal.

But I HATE psychiatrists. Ok, you have a "software problem" (really, ever had a mania? I would say hardware...) -> so now we're gonna cause the software problem with hardware pills. Pills that let you function less. Pills you only take if you hate yourself. I rather take the risk of ending arrested again not to be zombie full time. I have the right to live too

@jestdotty they're not real doctors and they know it.

Lithium is a known one yes - but my mom used it too and ended up in hospital because of it. You can poison yourself. I prefer not too. But as you know (i think) - i have haldol injected sadly. I'm so fucked.

Mania is awesome until you're worn out. People want to be you ((c) Kiki). Only thing docter can do is make you sleepii or very ill (what they did to me)

@retoor
cant say specifically why... but it doesn't surprise me in the slightest that youve been arrested or are bipolar af.

i think wed be good friends if it wasnt for the distance.

@retoor

u gotta watch this guy

@jestdotty you may find it amusing too

i met him in my early 20s cuz health insurance required a psych eval before getting a (~100k usd) spinal cord stimulator surgically implanted.

took the big MMPI test, 4hr block, fone in under 2 (though i did write some minor notes in the margin with crap like being asked, a page later, another (3rd+ time) another iteration of 'are you schizophrenic?' ... like "still not schizophrenic")

only had met him for ~15min or less cuz he wanted to tell me i had to take the test (likely just for billing reasons).

2days after the test, he personally calls to say the results were in and he was officially clearing me for surgery.

2days later surgeons say psych didnt clear me.

i immediately reqd records from him. he withheld insisting i come so he could explain 1st(law meant for extreme cases)

brought my mom(crna) as witness

i asked a few questions (politely af for me) was called argumentative. same with my mother.

he ended up blaming my mother getting divorced (i was 12) for my rare, PHYSICAL condition (2 limbs devd after broken bones, L arm @24 L leg @18)

rationale?

'it's like when a woman, let's say, age 54, is stopped at a traffic light waiting for it to turn. then she gets rear-ended, winds up in the hospital with permanent disability of some kind.

It's simple to just say it's a random coincidence right? but... if i tell you that everyone in her close family was deceased or put on permanent disability, all by age 55, it's easier to realise the real cause....'

moms face was hysterical. she just kept staring and blinking. "you're not suggesting that someone who is fully stopped at a light, somehow causes another, totally random, driver, to hit them, because they subconsciously are thinking about their age and relatives.... right???"

him- "of course, the mind..." grabbing his self-published book.

she stood up, looked down at him and loudly demanded my records (incl. valid threats).

@retoor @jestdotty

forgot the link

https://youtu.be/t9mt8SKIAQM/...

pretty sure over half of these views are from people ive shown for comic relief.

theres 4 of these horrid vids... even sid clearly outranks his ability on cam and sanity.

this vid, if people actually saw it more often, would totally be reported\removed for being sexist or something.

@awesomeest his face creeps me out

and his voice

why are there so many edits

why does he pause randomly

why is his face one expression
why is he forcing his voice to be soft

this guy creeps me out

@awesomeest "who develops migraine headaches more, men or women? *pause* women! *video edit*"

lmao why did he say it like that

this guy thinks he found a correlation and is a genius because of it

I think the constant smiling is because he's used to people telling him he's wrong and he's already got this whole "talk down to people" reflex so ingrained because he's gotta use it so often

Jesus seriously why can't he make a video without editing randomly. neurotic

he's honestly very creepy. reminds me of groomers. he's trying to tell you he's gonna be your friend, he's got an excuse for everything for you, look he's so soft and caring! but the dead fucking eyes. the plastered face. he's terrifying

his knowledge on psychology is pathetic. you wouldn't end up a perfectionist if you get punished even if you do perfect. you'd find being perfect irrelevant. this is child psychology 101

yeah this guy is a trap. he's a groomer. he tries to seem calming to lure in previously victimized / malformed people and then re-victimizes them to control them. he can't even make them he's just getting sloppy seconds

I like that they're (psychiatrists) never able to solve with your problem. Oh, you have x or y? We can't solve it, but we CAN help (with medication ofc)! They don't know how to solve because a list with opinions is not a disease you can threat. They have to admit that they're the worst 'doctors' ever. The few people who are happy with it, are unhappy about themselves and prolly addicted to the medication

@jestdotty I remember you telling that last time before and they were kinda right. It's all psychological warfare. The moment you let someone tell you that something is wrong with you, you're lost. I know a guy (a doctor ironically) that bullied his son (my friend) with autism that he didn't have but he started to doubt for a while. His dad made him insecure. The father as doctor probably knew it was all bullshit. Very sad. He sang songs about how it is to live with an autistic son. Sick huh?

@retoor autism is real... between the known genetic mutations in dna and the differencesin brain formations... and a ton of data on dendritic spines.... autism is definitely definable. In increasingly more cases.

That said, a friend/colleague of mine (autistic for sure) had a minor debate over the newer classification being ASD... "Spectrum".
His stance:
there are so many varieties and levels of intensity= so spectrum fits well.
Mine:
Spectrum is everything. Like the light spectrum, EVERYTHING is on the light spectrum... that's like saying everyone ussome level of autistic...

His final statement and future reduced usage of Spectrum gave all the info i needed to know he agreed... at least mostly.

I like throwing out that im autistic.
Too many autistics are masking and/or shamed for having autism (leaving aside weird new 'im on the spectrum' fad), like they are lesser/disabled inherently due to "autism". I challenge anyone to view me as inferior due to autism.... which i def have.

@jestdotty

Im glad you enjoyed the vid(s)in the way i expected you would.

Btw, did u watch the other 3?

Maybe i missed it in your comments... but aside from the ridiculous camera angles, zooms and edits (which imo is even worse cuz its obvious thar there was another human assisting on this yet it somehow made it worse)....

The thing that really got me was how he was supposed to be projecting an aura of a clincal psychology pro... yet within literal seconds he was breaking out in a visible sweat from a casual recording that he chose, in his own office... that's like the worst thing for credibility possible.

I wonder if enough shrooms could make him genuinely entertaining.

Oh, and yes, he's a total creep. I wholeheartedly, fully, agree. Also a misogynist, insecure, fraudulent, dumbass.

He insisted to be addressed as "doctor halpern" too.

Tbh,i kinda wanna find him and see whats up withhim now, a decade later... maybe mess with him some

@awesomeest hey, where were you all that time?

@retoor

well... the short version...
apparently a virus,
( nearly the entire population of the world has had since before the age of 3 and typically never bothers adults without aids or leukemia (i have neither))
reactivated back around age 8... causing tons of weird, seemingly disconnected medical conditions since then.

in my adult years ive had much more severe issues (sudden, total loss of consciousness, weird heart shit, the other conditions(hives\rash, high temp idiopathic fevers, extreme fatigue, etc), including meningitis(6yrs ago, LP\csf showed said virus(hhv6) but since i ended up recovering enough to go home, a dr treated it like a typical non-issue)
and migraines, minus the headache, giving me transient amnesia (like total, not foggy memory).
January i became aware of the amnesia (also recurrence of weird migraines) because, like any sane person, i told myself, while apparently knowing i would be having amnesia of the event...

@retoor
knowing\telling myself via some creepy clue trail that only id understand, also confirming that i mustve been the sole architect.

spent 2mo making an intense system to record and analyse anything i(mainly, amnesia-me) may do... which ofc had to be tamper proof... against me\amnesia-me.

... tons of mindfucks and realisations of damage i\a crazy version of me could actually cause later...

several severe neuro symptoms from pressure (now clearly swelling) in my cervical spine later...

over 3wks stuck at my mother's, in and out of ERs(or admitted), then she say something weird in my eye... used a work connection (she's anesthesia) to get to a cornea specialist hours later.

cornea specialist looks at my eye, prescribes valtrex(valacylovir-- typically for cold sore or genital herpes, i have neither)

due to hives(and beyond)when reducing the valtrex, and old hhv6 meningitis diag, im currently on so much valtrex, via an eye dr, ive had 2 very odd conversations with pharmacists.

@retoor

if you know how to condense that further lmk.

ive tried simple "swelling in my spinal cord"... that's apparently either code for 'i dont feel comfortable giving more details so just assume im gonna die but don't ask anything' or tons of assumptions that are mostly asked... both varieties end up with some chain reaction of cards and\or vague offers and\or suggestions of 'helping me get through this emotionally'... or worse.

basically everything that's short simple either seems somewhat facetious or like a personal slight to someone or gets some amped up story of me being about to die.

tbh, i was pretty critical for awhile... but now, a bunch of shit that i never expected any viable solution or cure to, is strongly connected to this thing that should be able to be wiped out(well made dormant) with enough drugs... even the painful af handicap in my left arm and left leg should have much less pain.

biggest annoyance now is every new dr think im nuts, for new reasons

Oh 🙁 get better 🙁

Thanks for the short version :p