I haven't really known what to post. But I've decided not to care about being relevant or care about the like count. I'm a very competitive person so things like like count tend to effect the way I see the quality of a post.

I want devRant to be a place where I can be honest and feel safe even if I don't get the validation I sometimes wish I had. And hey maybe someone will think my opinions or thoughts are interesting.

So let's start with a little about me. I'm a 17 year old kid that loves programming. I work full time as a full stack web developer and I'm really the only web person. The current system is built on WordPress because of fucking course it is. I don't like it but I gotta keep it user friendly for less techy people to manage. No one likes have all minor changes and tweaks having to go through one person when they could do it themselves. So I manage.

I'd say my passion is more backend development but I do love having a pretty UI to display the results.

I've struggled with mental health the past few years but I'm doing much better. Even just last week I had an anxiety attack during a social event. I came here for the community and I do enjoy it, but I'm gonna try to make it an outlet. My best friend went off to university and I don't really have any IRL friends I can just be me around.

I don't have anything special to say. But if you read this thank you for listening to some random kid on the internet. I hope you have a great day.

I love to program — I discovered that about myself a few years ago. Beforehand, I only KNEW how to program. But then I discovered the power programming gives you to create things, and even help your surroundings. So now, I can surely say, that I love programming. Heck, I am even dating a very talented programmer.

But despite all the pleasure I derive from it, I feel lonely sometimes. True, there are millions of programmers all over the world. I also know I am not the only one who prefers coding over going to the movies, taking a walk, eating or sleeping.

Why do I feel this way?

My loneliness is a gendered loneliness, as there are not many women in my field. For sure, there are women who study computer science in high school or at the university, and some even work as programmers. But they are very, very few!

I often underestimate my abilities and feel intimated for no apparent reason

#random thoughts

In a world full of fructose fathers and carbohydrate caretakers, be my rubber duck 😌

Why programming is so addictive and cool? Really wondering why other jobs are not like that..

I wish there was an option to ++ my own rant cuz only i find my rant relatable ig :/

The most productive way of development is going slow and don't make a lot mistakes. Lately, I'm doing the opposite. It's often not your skills or knowledge but just your patience / expectation to be managed. Since I switched from C to Python I got the mindset that everything should be possible to make in short time with low effort. Being used to do a lot of effort because of C development gave me a lot of patience and upgraded me to be a better dev at any language. But sadly, I notice it's a skill you can lose. How to retrain my patience. Doing a lot of C again. But I want to have the patience NOW (retoor said impatiently). What a paradoxale dilemma shit. You have to do patient stuff to be become patient whey really sucks and sucks if you became inpatient.

Very underrated skill that actually says a lot about you as programmer: patience.

With enough patience you can master anything. Without it, you're depending on tools that allow you to. That's OK, but there's always some price to be paid. Many time it's the ignorance not knowing how the tools work and thus how it actually works. Some people can live with that, others don't. Knowing how somethings works is relative anyway. Do you know how it works until the language level? Kernel level? Framework level? Everyone chooses themselves what the limit is I guess. My limit is the C api / kernel interface.

Random thoughts. I'm just bit frustrating performing low lately and speculating about what to do about it. I just don't have a different hobby than programming. Doing something else for a while to give brain a rest would be best but it should be something raising dopemine. TV / gaming doesn't do that for me.

Sigh, how to do absolutely nothing. I did it for a 1,5 year full time but that was because of medication. Now it's impossible.

No matter how hard you try to stick magnet with a wood it just won’t work out in any way.

i hope its possible to change the wood into metal just like as easy as type-casting an integer into string, but it just won’t happen anyway~~