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Seasonal depression is starting to kick in. I'm feeling like I'm not doing good, whenever I ask for help with code people usually just rewrite all of it when they fix it so I feel like I'm not improving at all. I'm almost to the point in my life where I have to move out and be on my own I'm 19 I still have about 2 more years but it's so stressful. My room is the most comfy place for me I cant be away too long or I'll just get depressed so how am i supposed to find somewhere i like more? And what would I even use the other rooms for. I want a roommate (particularly a friend of mine) but I'm not even out there and I can see the future depression I'm gettin myself into with all the Bill's and jobs and shit, and college doesnt help with stress or depression at all. I probably shouldnt worry about that right now but i just cant help it.. it goes by too fast fuck.
Sorry guys this is the only real outlet for my feelings nowadays8
Fuck seasonal depression/SAD.
Every year in the second half the sub goes for a toss and I struggle with natural source of vitamin D3.
Supplements are fine but nothing beats natural supply.
I am not anxious. I don't worry. I am always energetic and happy.
But this SAD (Seasonal Associative Disorder) just fucks my mood up.
My mood is down, I feel lethargic due to lack of energy, that leads to hypochondria and triggers unwanted physical symptoms.
I just feel low overall. Able to perform at work and day-to-day life tasks but it feels soooo out of touch with everything.
When I have some good stuff happening, yet I don't find anything to look forward to in life and this same pattern repeats every year this time of the year.
I am well aware about everything, in control, going for therapies I don't even need, making sure I am physically fit, mentally healthy, and overall fine.
But this shitty thing is beyond my control and I just cannot do anything about it except wait for sunny days or pop some medication for supplements.
Now I understand the saying that in life some days are rainy and some are sunny and everyone wants to experience sunny days. Because fuck SAD.44
Finally got an haircut after 5 months and went full two blade bald. Feels like and good. the only positive change in past 6 to 8 months.
I look more metal and brutal now. Though skinny af. The quarantine has destroyed my inner soul though.
Constant anxiety and agony. All I have been doing is working for 12 hours everyday including weekends and occasionally play CSGO in between. Started listening to music but still very less. A passion I used to live for, now a passion I forgot.
My seasonal depression got better but fear of losing a good opportunity has ingrained fear into me. I am constantly insecure and afraid of losing something I don't have in first place.
And now for past one week, I have this terrible toothache where I cannot even open my jaw to eat.
I have been constantly going downhill and trying to be more and more grateful because of fear of something worse happening and shit keeps happening.
I need to get rid of the fear and build up courage. I am not depressed or sad. I can function very well. I am just numb to everything around.
I function like a machine. Productive with no feelings or emotions.
Never have I have been able to relate to Welcome to the Machine by Pink Floyd.
I am just another dumb and rusted cog in the machine.15