Lately I am facing this issue. I spend a lot of time and did hard work on some specific thing! but it doesn’t seem to work as it should be, so because of this I am disappointed. I don’t know I should be feeling like this or not, but I am questing myself that I am a good developer or not!

It’s not like that I don’t know stuff, I start working on laravel , few months ago. It’s been 4 months, and I already develop a backend of the whole app, but it was not that complex. Recently , I am assigned to this new project, which is very complex, and It was already made by some other developer, so I am new to this and I don’t know how it actually works. But I was assigned to add new functionality to it, and It was kinda complex, like maths and calculation and depending upon the data coming and updating calculations changed. So, I almost work hard and over time for this, and I think I did a good job, but turns out it didn’t. So, I worked again on this, but again turns out it didn’t work out as it suppose to be.

So , After all of my hard work, the code was not right, and that led me to question myself and I am feeling bad. Is this normal? Is it okay to feel at something?

I am unable to understand the naming convention. I SUCK IN IT.. CAN'T I JUST NAME MY VARIABLE AND OTHER THINGS LIKE SIMPLY, WHY I HAVE TO USE UNDERSCORE AND ACCURATE NAME FOR IT.

I mean , my variable does tell what is it for then why I need to do that?

Okay my Instagram feed is filled with Devin AI engineer! It's not that I'm threatened that it will take my job, but srsly? Is this a threat?

I don't want to work today 😭😭😭! I feel very low and stupid! (Towards coding)

Kay! Why people think remote job is less then a onsite job? Excuse me? I also work remotely. Okay I get it that onsite you have to go onsite through bus or blah blah , but your hours are not counting by a tracker and not getting SS every 2 min. My family doesn't understand that I have to be on my laptop for at least 7-8 hours.

Their reaction is :" why the food is not ready?"
" I am doing work"
"So what? You are home!"

And WHY LARAVEL COMPOSER UPDATE IS SO DAMN SLOW

I can't believe I am 22 and doing a job. In my mind I'm just a college going student. I don't know why I am not growing mentally. It's just me or anyone also feel this? Maybe I should go to some therapist? I don't feel like I'm in professional life.

I don't want to work😭😭😭! I just want to sleep especially on Monday 😭

It's just me or did everyone feel anxiety before going out to some gathering... Ahhhh I really don't want to go... I feel so awkward and uneasy...but it's a must thing.

Okay so, tomorrow is my company's annual dinner. Ofc I am just going for food ....duh ! I don't know anyone from the company as I am a remote worker. Also I am introvert.. but ughhh food always comes in the way....

I hate GitHub

OMGGGG... One week ago when I was hired, for web developer they said we need ppl in Laravel but I was towards react ( also when I did interview I said I will most likely go to react) . Okay so I agree to Laravel.. ofc I want the job but today they hire a person for react 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

Wao

I am tired . I don't want to work... On backend making apis...

(It's only been one week )

Okay so , I asked something about my supervisor about a certain thing in programming. And they were like " do search about it"..... 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂If I find that on internet I would never ask you. You are on the least priority, to ask. Like? Can you be just tell ? You are experienced and I'm industry for years and me who just join 4 days ago....

Tsk tsk

Why Laravel is sooo annoying. I recently join a web dev company and they are working in Laravel. Okay so in first I was like okay...it's fine.. even though I was interested in react but in the end I thought... It's all about your logic.. language can be changed. So I am being told to run this api- boilerplate...it's been 2 days and the error is not going. Sometimes it requires different version of php, different version of this and that ..when it finally runs view is not found. I tried using different xampp..still giving error of changes in php.ini which I already did... I Soo exhausted of this language rn ..