I feel unburdened by what has been

LFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yoyo

Fuck hacker rank. Shittiest questions I have ever seen.

1 month after the return to the office policy & the toilets are not draining

For reasons I won't disclose, I am just switching off reality in a pretty hardcore way.

Hours, and I mean almost half the fucking day, spent soloing my own TTRPG. It's actually the most fun I've had in years, I think I'm becoming slightly addicted. Dude, I have an abyss of grimdark lore, it's fucking crazy. I'm just bending the space-time continuum with my sorcerous ways, turns out the piece of shit $2 mechanics I designed are so flexible the game simply takes no effort to enjoy.

Anyway, I don't feel bad for this specifically. I do my daily work hours so I'm at peace, and allow myself to just do what I want to do.

Everything else is what gets me down. Fucking shit, man. I'd be ashamed of complaning, as I have it very good. I like my job and I like my game too. No problems there.

But the fact that I cannot go anywhere beyond those two things does raise little bit of an alarm, buried somewhere deep beneath the hundred tomes of forbidden spells I'm collecting on the alcove, down by my quarters on the cursed tower.

Tomorrow night, I'm going on more mystical adventures together with my vampire homegirl. She's a total boss. I was at 1 HP with both my fucking legs broken and no mana, just sitting on the sidelines trying not to die, while she fended off an inquisitor two times her level, all by herself. I know she's a fictional character but I said thank you for real a couple times, just to be nice, as she totally saved my arcane ass.

Now, you get me, right? It's escapism, and I'm great at it, a little bit too much. Honestly, once I'm done with my responsibilities for the day, I just don't feel like doing much of anything else, and I'm not crazy enough (yet) to not notice the downside, that being, no fucking life outside of working and locking myself up inside dark fantasy wonderland.

I suppose this is my roundabout way to say this better than sex, but I don't know if you would understand the sentiment.

Anyway, shutting off reality again in twelve or so hours, can't fucking wait.

in any other language anything is possible

in rust?

"no"

and you spend 3 months on it and turns out it's a no

this is like project #13 for me where I fail at it. the others I didn't try as long. but now I'm sure

good night

My senior just created this beauty of an API...

Mixing undefined/null values with empty strings & random hyphens for other variables. And the phone number not following standarised notation (we are a telephone provider)

I don't drink alcohol

The battle rages...

EVERY COMPANY IS STRAIGHT UP REJECTING OR GHOSTING AFTER GIVING A TAKE-HOME ASSIGNMENT.

I am just tired of this at this point. I have been unemployed for over two months now. I have been constantly applying to every opportunity that I see within my limits. I've also reduced my salary expectations by significant margins.

I'd have understood if I was getting rejected after the initial screening / technical interview. But I am not even getting there.

Everything is shit. I just wanna cry.

Docker.
Tried very hard to like it.
Went through every possible option of making it work properly in every situation.
Ever since the licensing bullshit it has really gone to shit.

I might become a rapist instead of racist.

An act of love.

Insertion sort exists

99% of devs:

Bubble sort for the win!!

Just... use... framework-provided sort! Stop trying to do it yourself!

Everything is a fucking text.

one week back from my holidays and so far:
- 3 server outages
- 1 developer will be fired
- 2 new employees (company has around 35 employees)
- 2 employees leaving
- outsourced designs, the designer surely didn't read the feature research doc nor followed style sheet
- a small, easy feature has not yet been finished by the rest of the team
- new devOps engineer wants to rewrite our entire tech stack

But at least the CEO was doing it's best and ran away from the problems & ran 150km

think I had my first burnout

so exciting

I couldn't sleep last night and obsessively worked all day. couldn't pay attention during dinner / relaxing before sleep with people. everyone went to bed, I didn't. ended up getting up and working then trying to sleep, repeat, like 6 times. morning came, neighbours running saws and shit, eventually slept 2 hours then 1.5 hours, if even. then worked more. good morning. fuckit. then got really pissed at everything for like 4 hours and wanted to be left alone any time a person got close to me, BUT KEPT WORKING, stressing. until I realized holy shit I'm fucking miserable

now I think I'm crashing

IM SO EXCITED. I've never been so obsessed about my own incompetence at something before. I've never had this. this leads me to believe all burnout is due to people trying to fight their incompetence maybe?
people always tell me I work too much and all that but I never understood cuz I like it. maybe this is what they meant though. in which case I'm mad at all of them for incorrectly identifying my emotional state in the past grrrrr. cuz they'd use that as an excuse to rope me into doing things I didn't even find enjoyable because supposedly it was "good for me" but I thought it was fucking lame. fucking hell

i am just sad

Fuck You!

Have you ever presented an idea and been told it was dumb/ it won’t work?Only to have someone else present the same idea and everyone be amazed. 😂🤷🏾‍♂️

Everyone working a non-tech/programming job I talk to finds this daily standup meetings we have utterly laughable and micromanage-y.

Someone at work thought it would be nice to replace Wednesday's standup half hour with a "Wellness Wednesday" session. We had to find something around/on our desks at home that has a lot of meaning to us and show it and tell everyone why it has meaning to us. I literally couldn't find anything here besides my trusty pistol and I was like "it would be inappropriate to flash a firearm on camera in a meeting, blah blah blah." Maybe I should do more awkward shit like this so they stop this madness.

This is getting ridiculous.

Going on holiday is just a pain in the arse.

So I'm sitting on the swings, minding my own business, seing how best I could destroy this cluster of servers, when suddenly I notice SOMEONE IS COMING FOR MY COFFEE

"hi neighbour! What you've got there"

Most actual GraphQL explanation:

1. Still uses your xhr/fetch/axios on FE
2. Just sends all the requests to single endpoint
3. On BE uses its own resolution schema to call proper controller to handle the request, rather than relying on router for that

That's all!

Just another useless layer of abstraction with its learning curve, tricks and bugs as ORMs are

Nothing beats starting your work day discussing scrum...

I am surprised I didn't off myself yet

Fucked up my username.

Turn 26 tomorrow and feel like I haven't accomplished shit this last year

Anyone else burned out? I'm fucking burned out. Definitely taking a week off soon. That sort of makes it harder to get motivated though. I was humming along nicely with my new project, but got sidetracked fixing stupid shit in the legacy code and dealing with a moron in customer service, and I guess that kicked me off into a small depression. I feel like I should have worked harder in school, so that I could have gone into sales or something high paying, instead of "software engineering". With all the ass I've been kicking over the last year, I sure hope I get a raise soon.