Not that much dev-related, but still...

I wish I had a way of decompiling the code of my life, correcting it and then compiling it. I was diagnosed with Depression yesterday and it has turned me absolutely empty. The kind of empty where you feel like you're a void.

I'll survive. I know that much. I also know that it's going to be even harder than it was before.

Just for lighting the mood. This is also my struggle.

My job feels (and acts) like a soulless void.

Wow, that sounds like lyrics to an emo song for adults. screw that.

But it's still pretty accurate: While I have quite a few coworkers, and they're at least somewhat chatty, they never seem to respond to me, or even notice me. I see them talking, but anything I do or say gets ignored. It goes into the void and disappears.

I talk in the off-topic channels. People talk around me.
I make comments on releases. No responses.
I talk about music I've been addicted to. No responses.
I talk about food and cooking -- a popular topic at work. No responses.
I respond to an invitation to join the security team. No responses. (well, an empty deferral)
I release various features, some both my boss and a coworker described as "soul-crushing." No thanks, priase, appreciation; honestly, no one even seemed to notice.
I build useful utilities and functions for other devs to use. Nothing.
I optimize the scripts everyone uses on a daily basis, and mention it to others. Still nothing.

The void eats my efforts, and occasionally spits out parcels of work for me to do. The only responses I recieve from the void are when I ask about its parcels of work. When I send them back completed, nothing happens -- unless they need more work. If they do not... nothing.

My previous job was friendly and nice and rewarding.
The job before that was Hell.
This one feels like Purgatory, but ... somehow emptier.

I absolutely despise how businesses lean towards using social media for any kind of transaction or source of information when it's so easy for attention whores to flood that shit with useless shit. It's like no one bothers to make a website anymore or at least have a working phone number you can call. It's so convenient to just create a Facebook or Instagram account and put all the information there.

It's just so goddamn annoying how you use this crap for business and call it technology when all I fucking see are ass and tits everywhere. Can you at least be a little less lazy and untag yourself from that kind of bullshit? Don't get me wrong. I love looking at those but I can't seem to search for a fucking restaurant review without seeing someone's ass on it. Search for any type of establishment and you can bet your grandmother's silicone tits that someone has taken a picture of their ass on it or some pseudo-modeling bullshit and tagged that fucking business.

Man, I will not slut shame you for posting a half nude picture. I will not care if you upload a sex video. You fucking go, girl, but for the sake of all things satanic, stop tagging every semi-related business to it just so more people can look at your ass. We've seen enough. I've seen enough butts for ten lifetimes, I don't need to look at this shit when all I wanted to see was the damn menu.

You're disgusting. You're a fucking cunt and I'm pretty sure you know by now that you have nothing else to offer. You can call yourself a model all you want but stay the fuck away from my food. Keep that shit on your own page and maybe find a legitimate company to sponsor you instead of doing this kind of cheap shit. Those likes may fill the void inside your empty cranium but you should know by now that there are millions of basic bitches like you doing exactly the same thing cluttering every platform there is and you all look fucking the same to me.

This is the future of technology, ass and tits everywhere. You can't eat without looking at one. Fucking whores.

Has anyone ever wanted to be ignored? Like talking to an empty void, not wanting a response? Just want to be alone?

I don't know my problem is. I lost my motivation to code, my enthusiasm and excitement to read a code and solve a problem. My love of my life for 6 years whom I thought she's the one, gave up on us. It was a long journey, lots of ups and downs, but really worth the time and sacrifice. Now, she's doing good, very happy on her life judging from her social media. Can't believe she just moved for 2 months. To be honest, i want her to be happy but quite bitter that she just moved on quite fast. And I don't if this is the reason why I lost my motivation and enthusiasm to code. Or maybe I just don't like the project we're working on. Well, I really don't like it since it's a mobile game, I really want to build webapp or mobile app but it's too late to change the project.

I'm not like this, I used to code until morning without noticing the time, excited to solve a problem that stuck on me for quite a while. I really became a lazy person right now. I feel the pressure to finish the project but I don't see myself working on it, I don't feel interested reading a code. I just play computer games instead of working on my project during my free time. I don't know if I'm depressed. I socialized with people, have fun, happy when I'm with them, but when I'm alone, sadness starts to creep in. I feel like there's an empty void in myself. I don't know, i just want the motivation and energy to work on my project. Im tired, lazy, and feeling burnt out. If you read until this very last sentence, thank you and I'm sorry for reading this nonsense.

I feel no energy

no will

no power

no strength to move

i feel so.... empty....void.... null...... Soulless.... dont know how to describe

if something bad were to happen again or if someone were to die, i wouldnt have the energy to cry even if i wanted to, that is how low i feel these days can u even imagine that....

2h of sleep for the past 3 days

no energy to even workout because i feel like im about to faint if i do

all thats left is little piece of motivation inside me for whatever reason still alive and it keeps me moving

This post may contain spoilers to Doom 2016

Doom 2016 is so underwhelming and left such an empty void inside me ugh
I played through the whole game in about 7 hours, got all secrets and everything, like a 100% completion.
The music is fantastic, it fits the gameplay, and in combination with the good sound design it's a great experience.
The graphics are good as well, there are some hiccups like the Hell Guards' force field which looked like a kid mapped a sphere with a 240p texture in like 2005.
The story was OK, it's not really present there, because it's a game about slaying demons.
They had a minimal story, but they still messed it up somehow.
The ending of the game is an absolute wreck. After three bossfights stacked back to back, each of which took me like 20 minutes first try, which is less time than I spend on some levels even, I faced the Spider Mastermind, where Olivia dies for some reason, very undramatically, she just plops on the ground. Then the Mastermind appears, whose attacks are childish, and health is lower than the Cyberdemon. I got done with him in about 20 minutes as well. He also dies very undramatically.
Then, the cherry on top. Hayden just leaves you. That's all. Nothing else is told to us. What happened to the Hellslayer next? Did he go back to hell? What will he do there if there is nobody there anymore? Why did Samuel decide on sending him back to hell and not in his tomb? Why did the Slayer even get a backup of VEGA if he's not planning on restoring it???
All of these questions are left unanswered and this is absolutely killing me rn

Such a game leaves the player at such an anticlimactic ending with so many cliffhangers. They better be working on the next Doom where this is elaborated.

So, this is my first actual rant since I joined devRant and I am not saying I am perfect either. Here goes nothing...
1. I honestly hate it when people use spacebar instead of tabs
2. People who have a bad indentation or no indentation at all (even though almost all IDEs have auto-indentation). The bad thing is when a person asks me to have a look at their code I always end up wasting time fixing the indentation rather the actual problem.
I love a properly indented code and that's one of the major reason I usually recommend Python to most people.
3. Lastly, people who leave lots of unnecessary empty lines. E.g.,

public class HelloWorld{

public static void main(String[]args){

System.out.println("Hello world!");

}

}

public static Map<Integer, List<Integer>> stuff(arguments) {
HashMap<Integer, List<Integer>> map = new HashMap<>();
method(map, otherVariables);
return map;
}
public static void method(HashMap map, otherVariables) {
map.put(things);
}

So... You know how to return a map from a method. Then why do you create the map outside the method and make it an argument that does not get returned, making it confusing because the map gets created empty, given to a different method, then returned, making it look like you're returning an empty map...
...instead of just creating it inside the called method, returning it and assigning it to a map in the calling method? Even if you think that would create another map (it doesn't), the compiler is intelligent and can optimise that away.

So I've been waiting for almost a year to find a root method for galaxy s8 g950u (snapdragon) that doesnt have terrible limitations like only 80% battery life and others. I love Samsung but I miss root :(