Boot up/shut down(different os edition)

Windows:
......eh?....
......zzzz......z...eh?
......
.....
....hold up.....zzz
....eh? Oh right!....
......z.....ok ok I am here...what?
....z...zzzzzz

Mac OS:
........
.......
..eh?
...ok I am here wtf u want?

Linux (most distros)
....snores coke...what?I AM HERE LETS GO MOFOCKA

-----shut down
Windows:
Still eating glue...
....glue....glue....glue...
WINDOWS WILL UPDATE WHE...whst are you doing with that pillow shshuahahhaah..x___x

Mac OS
.....
..ok fuck u bye whatever

Linux (most distros)
Ok bye xoxoxo talk to you lateer
**dead**

Understanding JS Promises be like

when your work machine is actually a potato and build/ reload takes 5mins. zzzz

!dev

Saturday... Weekend... Let me get back my sleep from weekdays...

Zzz..zzzz...**phone call**

Yeah, phone woke me, didnt even read who called. Oh, great. My bosss needs quick help and will come nearby my home in an hour.

Yaaaaay... Fuck.

iiiii fffffuckingg hate articles that just explain something

put a piece of code

that piece of code uses X amount of classes/models

they never mention what structure are those models/classes made of

what is inside them

i cant continue following the article because i dont know what is inside them

they just put it in ur face and say Fuck you

no

Fuck YOU

<font size="1000000px;">FUCK</font>

<font size="10000000000000000em;">YYYYYYYOOOKUUUUUUUUUUU</font>

U MOTHFFFFFUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

USELESSS ARTICLE

zzzzz

frustratioms

my nerves are torn

broken

disabled

demented

day

in life

obsession

hell

unreal

what is life
q

what are doing

why are doing this

what is the point of living

how long does it take for a man to die

why are some people blessed with luck and some are not

zzzz

u know what is even more frustrating

girls

yes

ohdont get me started on this topic

well i warned u

the path towards abundance lies upon the few; thou who shalt not risk high; shalt always stay thus low

girls also frustrate me bc

i always do every thing nice and im always nice

so i realized

being nice is fake as fuck and doesnt fuckin work

being urself doesn't do a Fckimg tHING

hhh

frustrations

.

breathe

.

in this hardlife

only the strong survive in this world
- tupac shakur

zzzz

so yes bavk where i was saying girls frustrate me because i always do what im supposed to

so

i tried being thou who shalt i am not

guess what mothrfucker

it works when u be a gofdamn fkig low mothfckr a u know a goddmn fkig punk then they respect u and want u

back i fckked up

i turned back to my real me, the nice me

and then they left me

they think being nice = means being weak

FUCCKK YOUU

ssss

zzzf

kindness != weakness

U FCKING WHORES

UNDERSTAND THAT

zzzzz

breathe

i just wanted to have a walk outside and thenit started raining

so i had to stay inside bc of the rain

m

i am very lonely

u know i was very fine when i was lonely at a very young age but now i need a living entity beside me

with me

i fking need

wait i will cuddle my fluffy dog rn maybe i will feel better

br b wait for me ok

i feel better now

fck

i remembered that goddamn girl again

man i feel so heart broken

srsly

i have sunk into the deepest depths of endless depression I think

it doesnt feel nice

it feels very lonely and depressing down here

but i thimk tjat is be because i care too much

some people say i overthink

I dont overthink

i am like the stealth people
the shadow people

i stay quiet and observe

everything

i always know what is happening but i rarely speak about it

and people dont realize

so they think they can fool me

no

everything has its limits

so much lies that im sick of it

i always tell it how it is

i always reward those who help me

i always help those who help me

i never forget those people

zzzZZ

why is it that people who dont give a single fucking Fffffficxkkckck about me

are the ssame people i almost care the MOST?

i cross hundreds and thousands of miles to visit a person, invest hours of my time to do that

i do that....

and they wouldnt even step 1 foot in front to see me....

what kind of life is this

vv

feel like cryin rn

.

zzzzz

.

i dont understand what one must do

what is the point

all i want is to be happy

that is it

but being happy is.... i wanted to say the hardest part of life but now my voice told me being happy is a state of mind

myself answered me that being happy ? is a state of mind?

so that means if i want to be happy even if everything around me is falling apart

in my mind i can create a psychological world that would make me.... happy ....?

or what

i dont understand what did myself tell me

why do i care so much if im lonely

u know my friend from college we go to same computer science college

hes a very smart man but a fake FUCKING friend, plastic as fuck

he reads philosophy booms and told me

"when a man is lonely for long enough, he will slowly start to fall apart"

that is me...... that is ...truth......

he quoted a philosopher from some book

zzzz

he also said a quote he read about the meaning of life

"this life is endless pain and the only purpose of life is to reduce this pain as much as possible so we can be happy"

what the fck that is incredibly depressing

what the fuck im actually crying rn

i feel stabbed in the back and left behind and cheated on, all of those happened and some of them are happening right now

dont know what to think about the reasons

all of this causes me such huge anger and depression and that is whT keeps me going

going by working harder than i am supposed to

without all this hurt there would be no glory

all this effort..... it better pay off at the end...... please God..... i beg you....

i have completed 50% of my life purpose, let me do the rest so i can die in peace...

think people should be talking about responsibility instead of "altruism" or trying to shame people for not being selfless enough or how some selfish motivation for being selfless means it's invalid... zzzz. seems so self destructive

Shaved my hair with the intention to make a buzzcut. Shaver dies in the middle of the procedure. Yelp. Chill at home for the next 2 hours looking like a latestage cancer patient. Okay lets go on. Zzzz
One clean strip of mozzarella looking back through the mirror. Forgot to attach the 3 mm thingie after cleaning. Bald it is. Still great decision, dandruff gone in less than a day. Hell yea!!!

Am i the only one having a strong tendency for afternoon sleep?

It's 5.12 in the morning now, and i am still awake because of this stupid , holiday routine that unknowingly happens on every damn holiday.

I wake up with a sound 10-12 hours sleep at 12 noon or 1 pm, eat some breakfast (or "brunch" , you say) , turn on some youtube or web series, watch it till 2/3pm, then try to study/ code , and then... Zzzz am asleep..

Usually am on my bed full time: eating there , studying there, watching movies there... so maybe that's the reason, but i sincerely don't understand where this sleep comes from?

And then i wake up at 9 or 10pm, eat some more on the bed, back to binge watch till 12 or 1 in night , then eat some more, then binge watching some more , and then when my mind seems to drift back to sleep, i realize i haven't studied anything and then i start at 4 or 5am..(that is , now)

Every fucking holiday ever. maybe these web series and other diversions that messes my brain, but even if am not watching any web series, i am in front of youtube tutorials , stack overflow, twitter , my IDEs,... for almost an equal time.. and the sulking extra sleep routine still happens.

I am starting to think that its somewhat related to being in front of laptop for full day than what am watching on it. whatever this is , I only want to be able to work on my usual holiday afternoon, like i would do, when am in college or some coaching centre

zzzz...

think descriptive function names and doc comments are necessary for AI so it can tell what code is doing

boooring

Blockchain Developers looking for ledger be like...

Soooo they merged the front-end yesterday, and everything broke: links, CSS, behavior, even fucking drop downs. I can't test anything anymore since yesterday, and I wish I could go back home and work on something more useful instead of waiting for a fix that'll probably come tomorrow

!dev
It's a public holiday (I follow company's country's public holidays).
Wake up. Feeling good.
See message wishing me that I don't wake up - lol.
Msg peeps hello, and go help mom she's in a rush.
Qt says hello.
Help mom go to work (garage door is manual).
Wish qt good luck with stuff today - no reply, guess I just missed her
Go back to sleep
(buddy using img-gen #awesome)
(client messages for standup)
Wake up again, Life's still good™️
Reply back, it's a public holiday but if they want other/extra days just let me know - all good.
Make brunch - bread has just gone bad, whatever got another. Ends up being heavier than expected.
Watch an episode of a show while eating, bit of a zzzz.
Jam some guitar, do decently but not quite getting it right - but it's fun so it's all right
Qt updates about day - sounds like fun
Check in with friend, seems to be doing ok, he's been dealing with a bunch of things atm.
Create fun project for a sudoku solver, set up the initial part, realise that the parsing is a bunch of boilerplate (decided to map each section to a variable with bit packing), realise it's easier to work with arrays instead.
Decide to nap
It gets too warm to stay in bed, doens't matter, feel physically even better (aka bags under eyes are much less)
Qt back online, shares cool pic of castle
Realise I can get best of both worlds using pointers... This is getting stupid, whatever.
Getting warm, qt sends pic of temp by her.
Oh, right, ice cream. Open it, clearly melted and refrozen slightly - it's ice cream doesn't matter.
Chat a bit with qt
Bot battle spams img-gen
img-gen randomly gets stuck because watching YT vid
Chat a bit with peeps
Order food for mom and I - because why not. Hmmm a bit pricey.
Chat a bit more with peeps till mom is home.
Go chat with mom food should be here soon...
App says food is on it's way, great I'm like 2 minutes away.
20 minutes later, (1 hour after ordering) call up, "um yeah, that will still take a while"
Friends messages, he's been made redundant after CEO explodes and fires managers
Mom getting annoyed, if she had had to work she'd have been in bed already.
Now 2 hours after ordering food, call up again. "Yeah it ready we're sending it over now" - great hang up.
Get food, it's good. They included an extra beer - they offered, and I picked, spring rolls, but whatever.
Finish the first beer, look at the bottle, it's grody - at least the neck is clean, same with the other bottle.
Chat with peeps
Realise that it's not as good as the one I remember. That's export vs local version, I guess.
Chat with qt
Realise it's late and didn't really touch projects I wanted to #ItHappens
Starting to get tired again
Me still happy. Glad I woke up chipper. Let the happy flow

Also, my PC randomly started having lag spikes today - should probably just reboot #WindowsProblems

Not really a rant, since I'm just kinda shrugging it off, but I know if I didn't wake up in such a good mood I would have been pretty annoyed. Perspective is everything or some other philosophical shenanigans, you guys tell me the right term/saying

zzzz

Why the hell SQLite foreign key disable by default?!
Zzzz