that's it again. my body shuts down. no energy to twitch uncontrollably.pure euphoria.

Day 24 of starving myself to death challenge.
If you want to have an idea of how much I eat per day, google KFC Boxmaster wrap. It's around 700 kcal.
Lifesum says I need 1800 kcal per day.

This is what trying to change a CSS px value in Safari looks like, in case anyone is curious.

Step 1. Find and inspect an element
Step 2. Click on the CSS property you'd like to change
Step 3. *POOF* the entire rule never existed!

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT2APwxLo/

Sigh

Remains my opinion

Day 22 of starving myself to death challenge. Fuck my life.

Day 19 of starving myself to death challenge.

I’m planning to fast again. That deep relaxation with zero twitching is the sensation I crave so much.
It’s 9:00, and I have the entire day ahead of me. Wish me luck.

Day 18 of starving myself to death challenge. I'm okay again, feeling better somehow.

You should build your next project in G

I found my favorite LLM I guess, it says whatever you ask it. But that first sentence, wtf :P

Questions in job applications have become a fucking joke.

I'm done with them, from now on to stupid questions I'm only answering in same fashion.

WHO TF STILL USES SVN!!!!!

The current client I am working for has an insufferable CTO who doesn't want to use git, because of some github new privacy terms... We have tried to explain git is not github and that we can host our own git server... He is a knows it all and doesn't want to use git in 2025... although I understand there's different preferences out there... No one in the development team wants to use SVN! ... The CTO doesn't even write code.

The second Deepseek released as open-source, America started to try to pass a law that makes it's usage illegal and punishable upto a million dollars and 20 years in jail.

so yeah.... OpenAI more like "IAmTheOnlyAI"

nervously waiting to see if you get the layoff email

unfortunately also need to continue working in the meantime

Scared Christians like to say “God doesn't make mistakes” when discussing trans people. Well, you're right: God doesn't make mistakes, so he made me trans to test your ability to love.

Been playing with Windows 11 for about 2 hours. I already hate it. Got a new computer and I can't downgrade to Windows 10 that I know of. The reason is all the drivers say Windows 11 on support site. No idea if they would work on Windows 10. Whatever, fuck.

First is some stupid widget thing (reminds me of security risk that was in Windows 7 desktop thingies) which don't work unless you have a fucking microsoft account. Fine, disabled that shit. I don't want a fucking microsoft account.

Next the menu is in the middle. Will try to figure out how to move that I guess.

Here is the first big fuck you by Microsoft. By default Device Encryption is turned on. But its not Bitlocker, that is somehow different. But I could turn on bitlocker too. Talk about a support nightmare. Bitlocker is some TPM supported encryption light? I read a Microsoft page describing the differences and I still don't understand it. So I turned that shit off. Supposedly it won't come back on by itself.

I also went in and did the standard disable auto updates via policy. Also turned off driver updates as part of auto updates.

Turned off a bunch of privacy shit too.

I don't know. Is having encryption worth it even for a laptop? I don't want to not be able to see my files if the OS goes to shit.

I hate setting up new computers because of all the bullshit you have to do. My older computer was fine until it started thermal shutdown shit for games I could play for years. So I have been dreading even using a new computer. I waited a full day before I even unboxed this thing. I am going to get the old computer serviced to fix the thermal shit. Then let kids use it for games and stuff.

I guess I am just tired of tech shit. It seems to get worse no matter what. I cannot imagine running as a Windows Home user. The shit I read about the fuckery going on there seems criminal. Like I heard of people getting their drives encrypted with ZERO ways to turn it off. Who thought that was a fucking good idea?

To be fair I feel like the default desktop styling is pleasant. The windows have a nice look and feel. The icons look nice. It will still open legacy setup dialogs. Not sure we will ever escape that. I am running Pro so I have a lot more options to unfuck things. I started with 64GB ram so I shouldn't have mem issues. I also had zero issues setting up with local account. Mostly because it autologged into machine with an account called User. This was the user they used to do the burn in. I created new account and changed password to User account. Didn't have to fuck around with install program trying to force Micro Account.

My first goal is to get my skyrim on there. See how it performs with a modded setup I have been running.

Day 11 of starving myself to death challenge.

It's evening. No #2 still, no gas, nothing but pure energy. No hunger or thirst as well. I feel amazing!

Deepseek fucking all major US tech/semiconductor companies brings a tear to my eye 😊

I'll keep on going about my vacation.

Went down the piste from where I took the picture, usually takes half an hour on average, I took less than 15 minutes.

I'm a tiny bit proud of myself :)

Doesn't taste like coffee...

The downsides of coding drunk: Implementing the same thing you've already implemented but forget you did

Working on creating an asyncio UDP server/client. Going to have it talk to another server/client. Why? Because I don't want there to be a round trip to my data. I want send and forget.

So I created a combo server/client in C++. I am testing out the client and I find that it connects and sends data with zero errors as a client even if there is no endpoint (server) active. Okay, well its connection-less so it kinda makes sense. So I am not even sure what connection means at this point. I figured it was sending data into the ether. Fine, I don't have to worry about dropped endpoints or some shit. The server does see messages once it creates itself (tested with Python server). Not old messages, just the ones currently being sent.

So I do the same thing in Python and use asyncio to create server/client with opposite ports to talk to my C++ server/client. However, if C++ server doesn't exist the Python client throws an error. Okay, wtf... So Python UDP client is gonna be extra steps because why? Because fuck you! That's why! lol

UDP Client Comparison:
C++: I don't give a shit, if you don't get the data then fuck off. I won't error no matter what.
Python: Oh shit, there is no server, so I won't even run. Because fuck you and wanting to send messages to the ether.

Now I need to do the same thing in C# and see what kind of "fuck you's" it will have.

What did I learn? I learned Python has a nice asyncio system similar to asio from boost.

I'm not one of those people who can just buy a phone and use it. I have to unlock it, flash it, de-google it and customize it before first use. I don't changes phones often, but my 2019 phone is slowly dying.

Here's my whole new setup with a Sony Xperia 1 V:

https://battlepenguin.com/tech/...

You were bound to miss it, so I immortalized the moment.

Merry chrysler...

Just made this for my new project

so weird not to have my code crash...

before I'd check it every few hours and reboot if it has crashed

but now I check and it's just churning along

the bug was easy to fix once my brain cleared some

My lovely colleagues from planning bought me this for "my continuous help over this year".

I love those guys.

New baby girl 🥰

Worryingly, at 4:04pm.

Currently implementing a Swift devRant SDK and encountered something very stupid:

The json value for attached image is an object (dictionary) when there is an image but it‘s an empty string "" when there is no image.

So two different types for the same property.

I hate this kind of crap.

Why not make it null or omit that property when there is no image?

Now I need to add ugly as fuck custom decoding code for this object.

RIP Thomas Eugene Kurtz, the creator of BASIC.